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Saturday..

Well, it's saturday again...I would've spent today with Christina if she weren't in rehab...-sigh- if only she could come home...

Anyways, today went rather much like any other day would've...Woke up later in the morning, enjoying every bit of sleep I can get..If I even get any at all...Then I pretty much just sat around and wasted time after mailing another letter to Christina...oh god I hope she's getting my letters...I want her to know what's going on, and I hope she keeps writing me so I know what's going on with her too...If only..if only I could be with her...maybe then I could have some peace and finally return to normal...
This state of mind is so cold...so lonely...So dark...and she's not there to light my way like she normally is...

Anyways...I went to a party at Will's house later this evening, it was rather eventful and nice I suppose...Rather nice to be doing something with my life once in a while I suppose...-sigh- It was fun while it lasted I suppose... We drank cider, had some food and played games and went outside for a while...it was nice, for a time...if only I could share it with her though...she's been plaguing my mind this whole time, never once leaving my mind at all..This has been hell, so dark, so terrible, so lonely without her...I miss her so much...

Please God, oh please bring her home...It hasn't even been a week and I'm already begging and pleading for her to come home...

If I could have one thing this Christmas...All I want it to be is her...please...could you at least do that for me..?
I love her...and I miss her so much it's unbearable...

Please bring her home soon...
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