I'm unbelievably bored, so I've decided to create a long a** journal entry. LIKE ADI. [Is it possible?!]
For about a week now I've been sick with what I now know is the flu or something much like it. I'd stay up at night with stomach pains and I went to the bathroom like 28346433 times every hour. It sucked, I didn't sleep at all. And then, yesterday I started getting sinus and congestion crap going on. I was out of school for two periods on wednesday and then thursday and friday. I got out during lunch and missed the last two periods of today to go to the doctor.
So we go there and go through that whoo-haw. And since I said I have back pain, my doctor wants to get me checked out and get some x-rays of my lower back, and my parents are all OMG WTF. It's not my fault, god. The doctor's the one that said it, not me. It's not my fault. mad
Hm.. Anything else I could put? I'm not sure. I guess I could go on and on about random crap or something.. Aye, I think I will.
OH! About poor widdle Ian-poo.. HE'S INNOCENT! He was outside at the time of the fire fighting about how Rufus wasn't allowed in. Plus, SASHA WAS INSIDE, why would he do that and risk her getting hurt or killed or some such thing as that? I don't know too much of the facts, really. And I also don't get why they put a bot with much more experience and technically advanced equipment up against a bot that came out of the line today, has absolutely no experience at all, and for all we know, could be a toaster? I don't get it.
I don't know too much about the storylines-- heck, i didn't know about this little event until Takai showed me a thread he made. xD But I still think that, no matter what, Ian's going to end up being called guilty. Even if, as they say they will, the Gaians are polled, I just have one of those feelings that poor Ian's going to be prosecuted anyway.
Okay, off Gaia - related topics.. And on to the real world.
lately, I've been questioning who exactly around here is ACTUALLY a friend of mine. I know Ka Dee and Ashley are.. Along with a select others. But I just don't know about other people.. I don't know that if a situation arises that I can't go about on my own, if they'd be there for me like a real friend should, like Ka Dee and Ashley and those few others would. Would they help me through it with warm words and open arms? Or will they be like a few people I know, who will pretend to be that kind of person until something serious eventually arises, and then turn tail and skip away to their land where they don't have to worry about anything? I'm starting to feel as if I'm going to start turning loner. But then again, I don't know anything that's up with me nowadays. Too much drama getting me all mixed up.
Something I've noticed about me that wasn't so relevant before.. My mind is just blank. I don't remember anything anymore, I don't know anything anymore.. My mind is blank. REALLY BLANK. I don't think about anything. If I have an item I'm supposed to study, in a creative sense, nothing pops into my head.. I don't know. There's really only one thing I think about at all anymore.. I think about ONE PERSON. Like, my mind is constantly painting pictures and writing his name in my head.. It's so weird. I don't know how it could be possible. IT'S WEIRD. xD Kind of scares me. Makes me seem like an obsessive person, that, for instance, if I see them talking to someone else I would get all defensive and clingy and be all OMG MINE NO TOUCHIE~ But that's not how I am. I mean.. I'm the type of person, and I believe this is a disorder I have, that has to be there with them holding their hand, close to them as much as I can be. You get what I'm saying hopefully..
IT'S SO ******** WEIRD. I've never been like that before.
Anywhoo..I don't have the slightest idea what else to talk about. So I'll stop now. :]
COMMENT HERE AND IN MY PROFILE. LYKLOLZNOW.
:Current Playlist:
Blink 182 - Down
Blink 182 - I'm Lost Without You
Madonna - Like a Prayer
Usher feat. Alicia Keys - My boo
Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue
Bowling for Soup - Captain Hook
Cinderella - So this is Love
Enigma - Gravity of Love
Modest Mouse - Float On
Savage Garden - I knew I loved you
Savage Garden - To the moon and back
DHT - Listen to your heart [techno]
Blink 182 - I Miss You
Sesaw - Sea of Twilight
[artist unknown, from Final Fantasy: The Spirits within] - The Dream Within
The Urge - It's My Time to Fly
Cradle of Filth - Nymphetamine
John Secada and [someone] - If I never knew you
Gwen Stefani - Cool
Josh Groban - Remember
System of a Down - BYOB
Coheed and Cambria - The Suffering
Damn Yankees - High Enough
For about a week now I've been sick with what I now know is the flu or something much like it. I'd stay up at night with stomach pains and I went to the bathroom like 28346433 times every hour. It sucked, I didn't sleep at all. And then, yesterday I started getting sinus and congestion crap going on. I was out of school for two periods on wednesday and then thursday and friday. I got out during lunch and missed the last two periods of today to go to the doctor.
So we go there and go through that whoo-haw. And since I said I have back pain, my doctor wants to get me checked out and get some x-rays of my lower back, and my parents are all OMG WTF. It's not my fault, god. The doctor's the one that said it, not me. It's not my fault. mad
Hm.. Anything else I could put? I'm not sure. I guess I could go on and on about random crap or something.. Aye, I think I will.
OH! About poor widdle Ian-poo.. HE'S INNOCENT! He was outside at the time of the fire fighting about how Rufus wasn't allowed in. Plus, SASHA WAS INSIDE, why would he do that and risk her getting hurt or killed or some such thing as that? I don't know too much of the facts, really. And I also don't get why they put a bot with much more experience and technically advanced equipment up against a bot that came out of the line today, has absolutely no experience at all, and for all we know, could be a toaster? I don't get it.
I don't know too much about the storylines-- heck, i didn't know about this little event until Takai showed me a thread he made. xD But I still think that, no matter what, Ian's going to end up being called guilty. Even if, as they say they will, the Gaians are polled, I just have one of those feelings that poor Ian's going to be prosecuted anyway.
Okay, off Gaia - related topics.. And on to the real world.
lately, I've been questioning who exactly around here is ACTUALLY a friend of mine. I know Ka Dee and Ashley are.. Along with a select others. But I just don't know about other people.. I don't know that if a situation arises that I can't go about on my own, if they'd be there for me like a real friend should, like Ka Dee and Ashley and those few others would. Would they help me through it with warm words and open arms? Or will they be like a few people I know, who will pretend to be that kind of person until something serious eventually arises, and then turn tail and skip away to their land where they don't have to worry about anything? I'm starting to feel as if I'm going to start turning loner. But then again, I don't know anything that's up with me nowadays. Too much drama getting me all mixed up.
Something I've noticed about me that wasn't so relevant before.. My mind is just blank. I don't remember anything anymore, I don't know anything anymore.. My mind is blank. REALLY BLANK. I don't think about anything. If I have an item I'm supposed to study, in a creative sense, nothing pops into my head.. I don't know. There's really only one thing I think about at all anymore.. I think about ONE PERSON. Like, my mind is constantly painting pictures and writing his name in my head.. It's so weird. I don't know how it could be possible. IT'S WEIRD. xD Kind of scares me. Makes me seem like an obsessive person, that, for instance, if I see them talking to someone else I would get all defensive and clingy and be all OMG MINE NO TOUCHIE~ But that's not how I am. I mean.. I'm the type of person, and I believe this is a disorder I have, that has to be there with them holding their hand, close to them as much as I can be. You get what I'm saying hopefully..
IT'S SO ******** WEIRD. I've never been like that before.
Anywhoo..I don't have the slightest idea what else to talk about. So I'll stop now. :]
COMMENT HERE AND IN MY PROFILE. LYKLOLZNOW.
:Current Playlist:
Blink 182 - Down
Blink 182 - I'm Lost Without You
Madonna - Like a Prayer
Usher feat. Alicia Keys - My boo
Yellowcard - Ocean Avenue
Bowling for Soup - Captain Hook
Cinderella - So this is Love
Enigma - Gravity of Love
Modest Mouse - Float On
Savage Garden - I knew I loved you
Savage Garden - To the moon and back
DHT - Listen to your heart [techno]
Blink 182 - I Miss You
Sesaw - Sea of Twilight
[artist unknown, from Final Fantasy: The Spirits within] - The Dream Within
The Urge - It's My Time to Fly
Cradle of Filth - Nymphetamine
John Secada and [someone] - If I never knew you
Gwen Stefani - Cool
Josh Groban - Remember
System of a Down - BYOB
Coheed and Cambria - The Suffering
Damn Yankees - High Enough
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