Gathering the Stars as I Build a Castle of Sand
So, since my status can't fit it all, I'll say it here. Don't be surprised if Enju disappears from the face of the earth for about a week. I'm taking a break from Gaia. I thought about making it permanent, but I could never do that. I'm sick and tired for being yelled at when I try to help someone else out. NO ONE IS EVER HAPPY AND I FINALLY FINE WITH THAT.
Shane, Patches, darling. We've grown so close over the past.. 2 years? I didn't love every minute of it, but for every minute that I was able to make you smile, you made life worth living. I hope I convinced you that life is worth living too, but I guess I can't make you happy without upsetting Rin and her master. At one point, you being mine and me being yours was an aspiration of mine... But then you met Miriah.... then the whole Ashley situation... and then I thought maybe Miriah was right to leave... but after hearing how badly she hurt you... I knew I couldn't leave you... Please don't get me wrong, none of this is your fault, so don't you dare beat yourself up about this
Rin, my Onee-san whom I love with every ounce of my being, I don't know how I got on with life before I met you. You've also made life worth living, and without you I would've never met Shane. But without me, I know life would be so much easier. You and your master would probably get along better, you and Angel would probably never would've had any probs either. I've lied, hurt, and disappointed you so many times that it makes me sick just thinking about it. Your master hates me, I don't blame him. And I wouldn't blame you if you decided that breaking all ties with me would be best. All you've ever done was try to help me and advise me...
Ugh... I'm so sorry... I apologize to the both of you for making your lives hell...
Uttering a Soft Prayer, Amused By Those Footsteps
