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Could you drown me in your ocean, So no one sees my tears?
could you let me see though your eyes,
so I could feel sans of that despise?
Could I feel the lack of loathing,
so i could count the stars in mourning,
How horrible the world is bathed in simple cold white. . .
How small peoples minds are, from the other side of the bullet?

How could i count how many ways i loath this?
What could I hate but what hates me?
How could you breath towards my upward fall?
How could you see the good side of me,
even buried in the heavy hatred and unprovoked taunts?
How could i say I love you for backing me, in my time of need?

How long will it take for me to breath that heavy sigh?
Will i be complete in sans mind?
Or will I just one day, stop breathing in my sleep?
How am i supposed to find joy,
in this darkened world of hot ranging sadness and despair.

Anger being my last resort, and may I scare myself.
The ones i take for granted, the ones i need the most...
What really matters?
What if I just want to step off that bridge between joy and sadness?

Theres nothing that lasts,
so why should i hold on...
even to the last stands and threads of my mind I claim to own...
Or will I give up all emotion and end up like a stone?
Why do I always feel this way, like nothing will stay?

Why do i have to be here. why can't they let me be?
The biggest question of all is why, why would you do this for me?
Why stand for a worthless wretch that cant even turn off part of herself for but a moment?
And what did i do to get a friend like you?

I admit I don't care any more.
I admit I'm lost in the woods
I can't find that path I see
even when theirs no path to be
I can't turn off me
But I can admit my life is filled with woulds
But my heart is all tore up

What did I do to please the gods?
How did i get friends like you?
Know i love you through and through
and my last breath, I dedicate to all of you.

I admit I scared my self
I admit it made me stone
but you stuck there
even when the coulds came in
even when it started to rain