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color(s) o teh day:
the entire rainbow!
4laugh rofl pirate whee biggrin blaugh

somthing's changed, and this time it's a good thing!
i am sooo happy!
i cant feel Them anymore!
i was sitting (lying) in bed last night waiting for the shadows to change into Them like they usually do, and i thought
they're not real. they're just in my head.
and the realization of it hit me! they cant hurt anybody, cuz they're not real
then the shadows seemed friendly again
and the chill was gone
i felt somebodies hand on my wait and i knew that it wasnt them, it was probably Zach.
and i havent felt afraid or paranoid since last night!!!
when i woke up and said good morning, i couldent see the shimmery colors surrounding people!
even when i was taking a shower i didnt feel them in the mirror, outside of the curtain, or in front of me when i had my eyes closed.
this is great!
im being cautious about not getting too excited, though (it totally shows, huh? xd ) cuz im not so sure if they're gone forever, but they're definitely not here now.
*does a little dance*
so... i jsut needed to tell somebody (aka: whoever's reading this)
cuz i dont wanna tell somebody in rl right now in case they come back.
so... right.
haha
yay
whee