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So this is it
This is the end
The moment I’ve been bracing myself for
The moment that I’m cast out the door
The end being nigh
The thought being soft
In all its havoc inducing elegance
In all its partially witnessed grace
This is what I face

The difference in now and then
The need to be free again
There’s nothing like tomorrow
To get you through today
There’s nothing like sorrow
To take the pain away
I’ve forgotten all that’s useful
Without you by my side
And I apologize if I my eyes don’t sparkle
Like your perfect diamond heart
Lighten up in the perfect diamond sky
I’m sorry for the things that I assumed
And for all that I have lacked
I’m desperate for a changing
For a truth within the past
I never wanted anyone to be hurt
By my reckless enduring pace
I didn’t intend on losing you
Your heart, your tears, your faith

You’re such a tragic mess
I should’ve have realized
Should have caught on to the drama
Instead I’m caught up in the lies

So this is it
This is the end
The moment I’ve been bracing myself for
The moment that I’m cast out the door
The end being nigh
The thought being soft
In all its havoc inducing elegance
In all its partially witnessed grace
This is what I face

There’s a lightly glimmered changing
In what was mine what was free
The soul of someone innocent
The wonder of “meant to be”
There never was an ending
A happily ever after
I’ve forgotten all that’s useful
I’ve ripped apart all the chapters
And I apologize if I my eyes don’t sparkle
Like your perfect diamond girl
Stuck in hope shattering world
I’m sorry for the things that I assumed
And for all that I have lacked
I’m desperate for a changing
For a truth within the past
I never wanted anyone to be hurt
By my reckless enduring pace
I didn’t intend on losing you
Your heart, your tears, your faith

You’re such a tragic mess
I should’ve have realized
Should have caught on to the drama
Instead I’m caught up in the lies
Take a look
See these eyes
These are the eyes of a sinner
Of a liar in all truth
If you never loved me
Then I never loved you
If all this was a tale
Then I’d hate to see the end
I don’t want to know
What will become of her
Your new pawn
My once best friend

So this is it
This is the end
The moment I’ve been bracing myself for
The moment that I’m cast out the door

I’ve been tossed out
Thrown around
I took a minute
To look around
I realize now
What you’re worth
Not my time
Not my thirst
I wish for you
Nothing but well
But in the end
Time will tell
How long stand
My wishes so tall
What will happen
What will befall

You’re such a tragic mess
I should’ve have realized
Should have caught on to the drama
Instead I’m caught up in the lies

So this is it
This is the end
The moment I’ve been bracing myself for
The moment that I’m cast out the door
The end being nigh
The thought being soft
In all its havoc inducing elegance
In all its partially witnessed grace
This is what I face