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color o teh day:
warm gold, then dull gray
heart cry

i feel so weird....
like...
like im all depressed.
and i have NO clue why!!!!!!!!
my heart jsut started hurting after Zach left...
i should be happily content cuz today was one of the best days in my life!
but noooOOOooo...
i just want to break down and sob...
i just need to vent to somebody, anybody, and so im letting it all out on my poor abused journal. : P
...
cry
gah...
WHATS WRONG WITH ME?????????
gonk scream sad crying burning_eyes
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!
*whimpers* just kill me...
NO
WHAT AM I SAYING???
im just going to let go and cry...
see you later.

********edit********
i was talkin to Seirra...
and she says that i really am in love... i miss him so much it hurts, and i cant be away from him...
woah...
then i dont like it!!!! it hurts!!! gonk
but at the same time i love being in love
...
it's like a drug...
feel great while taking it, feel bad when you cant have any...
but somehow still feel awesome all the time
so... confusing...
i thought i loved before... but never like this...
._.
wow...
Zach...
wow...
heehee..
whee
nvm, now that i realize what's going on it feels awesome.
yay!
im so happy ^ ^
oh noz! im twitterpated!!!
eeeehehehehehe!
4laugh heart 4laugh
this is so weird!!!!
it's like trying to describe color to a blind person who has never seen.
or being that blind person and suddenly being able to see...
*smiles happily*
well, ima go to bed now, i have a big day tomorrow
(has to register for high school... and get school pictures,... what will i wear??? lol )
g night whee