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Forcefully you concurred me.
But the guilt wasn't in my favor.

Your twisted words of petty lies,
contused and stricken the air.

For some reason this isn't fair.
You're wicked eyes stare at me.
Infused with pointless rage.

Your princesses,
Your goddess
The women you worshiped
had disappeared and come again
as an impure
maiden.

Nothing but a whore.
What once graced her perfect face,
had died and was replaced with ugly.

You will never understand.
She is and will always
be everything she is
now;
The whore in her had never died
or was struck awake.

I'm sorry fool you are mistaken.

Your face bares a hideous
expression.
Confusion mixed with hate.

I don't dare smile at your pitiful state of question.
I don't dare let you know how great chaos tastes.

Lay on the floor with glass in my hands.
I stare at the man I once loved.
The teacher I had admired
now all I once see
is gone.

It almost pains me to see you in this state.
Just looking at you face over joys me.
Your so helpless you don't know what to do.

You don't know what you've done.

You shared your pain with someone who was already lonely.
That was the first mistack starting your teaching quest
Your selfish ways have disowned you.
Inflicted so much pain on my sensitive heart.
I locked away what i once had long ago.

You never knew the card i played.
You saw me and that was all you could keep.
Your selfishness screamed out what you tried to hide.

I understood your reckoning.
I remembered everything even when
you left me with no sight.

Looking back i moved along, wishing i could destroy my path.
I tried to take my own life.
A bystander was who saved me.

Then again i was lost in all i am.

I stood upon the wooden chairs edge.
Temping my every desire.
Instead of fall i took in the view
and that when i got your call.

I took you back and yet again.
I was devoted not to let you slip away.

Sometimes i really question that because
i became your slave.

I carried on this beaten path.
The one you so carelessly patched.

That's when i say your destroying eyes
seek out your new retired heart.

One that was cold and ugly fit.
Some how you saw past her stupidity.

i watch you play with her.
you deny now what you didn't see.

i stand behind the dotted line,
because i couldn't bare what there was to see.

So now that its come down to this,
and all the dreams you had are all a rye.

My view for you has forever changed.
Because i know now that the sick minded can do.

you see her remains on the floor,
and realize that your yelling at me.

Your hateful eyes quickly change,
see how fast you realize your mistakes.

You crawl to me, but i stagger back.
I know my body will be tempted to give in.

You coo to me so sweetly.
and it feels like a deviled dipped sin.

"oh Destiney my Divinest Flower,
how could i be ever such a fool?

Blaming you for my cowardliness
I wish i could do better then complain.
You know me, you want me and your
eyes show me that you'll never forget."

You reach your hand to my own.
Like your efforts to contain me
will fill the void.

Your soften eyes,
flash to hate.

Because you know that I'll never
change my mind.

You burn to gray,
when all i could say
is: "i love you"

and then i drifted away.