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I lay here ugly on the ground.
Dancing with the Demon, My eyes stained light gray.
The very thought of you scared my hunger away.

When I had my Knight in shining armor,
He kept the Monster at bay.
Tired-some in my stone cold eyes the Monster plotted away.
Your voice, your presents kept Him stricken to delay.
His furious quest for my mental disarray.

When you just left me, alone on the ground.
My body jerked and stabbed me awake.
He began the torture of His insane crave.
Too screwed up to even try to even explain.
My hunger, my thirst for His crimson indulgence,
was the beginning of our fiendish foreplay.

Raping me of my human interaction.
Resorting me to my whorish ways.
Devouring my ever so colored complexion.
Turing my pale tan skin to a now repulsing white.

I left aside my twisted thoughts,
I lock up what left I had of my broken heart
and moved along with my mindless daze.
Not knowing when it ended or start.

I shattered fear with the Demon so near,
The ghostly face that reflected back
laughed at my pitiful desire for change.
Knowing there was no way to fight my crave.

I fought so hard to relive my pain,
My efforts just attacked in rage.
A fiend I became sheltered only by self,
I only a victim of a Self-diabolical slave.

Broken-hearted I traveled on,
Despite my loss of sight.
No eyes to behold deception or truth.

He licked my ears and made me fall
under the spell of Blind-Fold rage.
My sanity and memory remain cloudy to this day.

I blamed others for what I became,
because the thought of having to change.
I was no good for you, I'm nothing but worthless.
Who am I to have something so great?
No words of wisdom bothered me,
because the Monster filtered the noise.
He muted me and blinded me,
so that his voice was the only comfort I found.

At my braking point of selfishness
I heard a familiar sound.
It shielded me and covered me
as I drift asleep because my body had drowned.

Bodies of sorrow licked my lips,
waiting for its turn of avail.
It drowned away my wicked soul,
so may His ashes rest in hell.
It stricken me and contused me.
Until my body was left in the dust.

You whispered to me, thee insane me,
until you beckon the Fiendish Hunter to reside,
back into it's hell in my stone cold eyes.

You saved me and held me,
you gouged out my eyes
so I could tell you no lies.
Destroyed my indulgence of sight.

Raping me of my stone cold eyes
that where meant to kill.
My hateful sight that once choked me.
You promised me that by my side,
Where you would no longer hide.
You'd cherished me and cared for me.
with my damselized soul bound fate.

Ironically you’re the cause of me
seeing darkness in the broadest of day.

You where my Knight in shining armor,
But guess forever on I'll never see it that way.