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The Horror's Of Love
By: Kelsey Swanson

I wander through the night
Having a horrible fright
Of what will happen
To my life, I'm so saddened
By all this pain
It's like there is nothing left to gain

I thought that you would make things better
But instead its gotten harder
Everything that was once a joy
Has become destroyed
I dont understand anymore
Its become a nightmare full of horror

Every passing moment
Is filled with unfullfilment
It's so discouraging
To have your heart keep breaking
I'm so misunderstood
I'm always in an aggrivating mood

I thought that you would make things better
But instead its gotten harder
Everything that was once a joy
Has become destroyed
I dont understand anymore
Its become a nightmare full of horror

I just want everything to end
I'm hearing voices in my head
I just want this fight to stop
But as soon as I try to talk, my body becomes a rock
I can't move, I can't even cry
Even when I try

I thought that you would make things better
But instead its gotten harder
Everything that was once a joy
Has become destroyed
I dont understand anymore
Its become a nightmare full of horror

You seem that you cared
But this is exactly what I feared
That if I turned, you would no longer be there
No matter what way I look at this, this isn't fair
You tore my love apart
Leaving unhealing scares in my heart

I thought that you would make things better
But instead its gotten harder
Everything that was once a joy
Has become destroyed
I dont understand anymore
Its become a nightmare full of horror

You were the world to me
I thought we were meant to be
Instead you ruined it
I even threw a fit
Why did you do this to me
Can't you just see

I thought that you would make things better
But instead its gotten harder
Everything that was once a joy
Has become destroyed
I dont understand anymore
Its become a nightmare full of horror

Every passing moment makes me want to scream
I just want to wake up from this horrible dream
My heart will never be able to heal
Why can't you just tell me your deal
What is going through your mind
Why did you have to lie

I thought that you would make things better
But instead its gotten harder
Everything that was once a joy
Has become destroyed
I dont understand anymore
Its become a nightmare full of horror

I just want my life to come to an end
Please try to understand
This wasn't anyone's fault
I just couldn't handle all the pain
So let me leave peacefully
And remember all the loving memories

these are my thoughts lately...im very upset