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Breaking Down
two days after we first kissed
"can we talk?" came out of your lips
i wasn't sure what to say
all i answered was "okay"

shaking inside, could barely breathe
i was afraid that you would leave
you said you have feeling for the other girl
which made my stomach twist and twirl

i later found out you tried to kiss
this other girl, my friend, on the lips
she refused and i was happy about that
what happened to our memories and when i tried stealing your hat?

i broke down didn't know what to do
all my thoughts were about you
i thought of the razor in the desk drawr
i couldn't take this pain anymore

black streaks across my pillow
i wouldn't let my tears show
pusing the razor out of my head
i would not go back to blood on my bed

i punched my legs and snapped elastics on my wrist
do you see what you did? making me do all this
trying so hard to fall asleep
i couldn't cuz all i did was weep

you said you broke down too
and "i care about you"
can i really believe you
after all you put me through?

how could you hurt me like this
my 2009 not anymore bliss
why did it have to end this way
wanting my pain to finally go away

listening now to only sad songs
what you did was so wrong
my pillows too we, and i can't sleep
you broke my heart, and i'm now weak.