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Ok well, this summer has not been what I expected.
Like the loss of Michael Jackson, Billy Mays(oxi clean), and everyone"s pets are dying.
Yes, this is very heartbreaking.
Plus, Dominic "Dtrix" Sandoval is flying to Vegas THIS VERY MOMENT and guess what?
I don't have a clue where he's going to be.
Is this hearbreaking?
To me, this shatters my heart.
This means that Ryan "Ryanimay" Conferido just might be with him too.
Anyone who knows me knows that he is my idol and part of my inspiration.
I don't know what is it about him, but his music and his dancing speaks to me.
I remember reading a bio about him saying that his family used to dissaprove his dancing.
He kept at it because it was one of his passions.
It made me realize that just because my family didn't aprove of me drawing, doesn't mean that I should stop.
I stopped drawing seriously for a long while.
I'm back at it, and I have never been so inspired to draw more.
I also quit music.
At one time, I thought I was screwed into music.
Then I got knocked down by false hope, lies...
Is that the way to help an insecure teenager through her struggles?
I just might give music a chance again, but this time not for the school's sake, but for mine.
Seeing what Ryan did made me...
Who I really am.
I just wish that one day I could thank him and Quest Crew, even though many of their fans might say something similar.
The difference between me and those other fans?
Well, I actually MEANT EVERY WORD I TYPED OUT.
I DO LOOK UP TO THEM.
THEY DID HELP ME CHANGE FOR THE BETTER.
I'm not saying that people don't do that, but some people are just so fake towards Quest, just for the "celebrity attention".
Well, I'm dont for now.
Oh, and one more thing, they made me believe in God again.
My faith returned (for the most part).
OK IM DONE FOR REAL THIS TIME!
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