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he's all i ever needed
all i've ever wanted
and he cares
i doubted myself
doubted i could be cared for
he proved me wrong
i smiled instead of that normal frown
all those wasted days
they all could hav been filled with sun
he missed me
he wants to see me
the happiness is almost to much
i swilled for hours and hours
again and again
read that sweet message
over and over and over again
maybe im thinking to much
maybe even fantasizing..
but i saw the message
i saved it
forever i'll have it
maybe God's giving me a break
finally answering my prayer
my one wish
the one i keep asking for
each and everyday for months i've begged
and begged some more
and maybe he's giving me my wish
or maybe im a blind lady
a blind girl
alone and blind and stupid
who am i kidding he has someone to love
why would he ever want a loser like me
because i care about more than his goregous face
more than his beauty
i care about him
i love him
i need him
he is more than air
more than life
he's everywhere and everything
to tell him how i feel is the hardest thing
something i just cant do
im not strong enough to
i'll find a way
you'll be my boy someday
forever and always <33