So tomorrow I get to spend time with my friend and we're going to go see a concert! I still have no idea who it is and part of me doe'nt want to know. Thi will be my first concert cause I'm not the type to go to these things. I also get the pleasure of doing nothing tomorrow since it's Wednesday. I was able to gain sometime today to actually sleep but my doctor still says I'm screwed. I don't sleep at all and I won't eat. He says that my stress is getting worse and I know why and I told him it to. He looked at me and said, "you need to let little things go you're going to be messed up the rest of your life." I laughed cause right now I have no life the only reason I'm here is because my step-mother wants a child and she wont have one herself.
My step-mother doesn't give a crap about my life the last time I saw her she said, "Jasmine, before you die I want you to have a kid for me." Do you see the love here? Cause I sure as hell don't! Now everytime I go see my dad there is always a guy there for me. eek one of them was one of my friends. I never see my dad anymore and my step-mom is pissed. She yelled at me over the phone complaining I wasn't having sex!
Well anyway I was talking to a guy about working out the other day cause I'm losing weight like crazy for some reason. He said that it normal for a person to loose weight when they're stressed and I yelled out, "I should get stressed more often!"
I have to see a theripist for two reasons, My parents devorce and my stress isue. I had a sesion last night with him and he told me that I should have at least one person close to me and there is only two people who are and one is moving away and the other is begging to make me move in with her! Well at least I have someplace to go. I used to have someone else that I held dear to me but right now I know I'll never be able to trust her again. I'll live I'm not the type to realize a mistake, I just continue with them that's all.
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