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When you look at me you see
A girl as happy as can be
When you get to know me you see
An energetic me
So many things
Have gone unknown

So many lies kept untold
Silent screams on a moon lit night
And whispers and tears
Over flow so many hours on end at night

Hiding away from sight
Lays a very different me
Things I have done and witnessed
Friends gone forever

Every day I put a mask up
To cover what’s really me
To hide this person
I know nobody wants to see

Letting nobody in
I take all regrets
For now I can’t be whole

Every thing has taken so much
From me
If I showed me for me
Then you would be afraid
To see
What I am
And how I feel

Every day
Dull as before
Every hour
Ticks and does not stop
And every second I waste
With nobody there
It hurts worse inside
Like nothing before

So go a head laugh and stare
But you would not recognize me any where
And I know you want to
Just let it out
Because this
Is not a lie

People do hurt
And lives do break
So fragile
As glass
One touch or push
Is all that It really takes
To push some one off the edge

This is my 2 sides
First the mask
Then the real me
The mask is my wall
That no body comes with in

I’ve let 3 people in
That I hold dear to me
And I was really hoping
None of them break me apart worse