Tumor. Dang.
CURRENTLY LISTENING TO:
A Beautiful Mind for penguins?
CURRENT MOOD:
Awfully missing someone close.
And rather wanting of a talk.
"Idontwanttoloseyouihavetomuchwithyouthatilove."
I think that pretty much made my morning.
Then, I noticed how I changed my profile, and I read it almost everyday. I wake up in the morning nd grab his shirt, and give it a big hug. Granted, it's just his shirt, but I think he should know that I tell him goodnight and appreciate that it's morning.
I've been actually cooking dinner for myself, only for me. I eat it at the table, having cleaned my own spot. I say grace, and I eat it off of the good plates and bowls and dishes, not paper ones. I drink from the good glasses, not just some cup. I don't IM anyone, I don't answer the phone. If they can't wait until after dinner, then they can find some other time to talk.
I make dessert for myself, and then I settle down and read. Sometimes I draw, other times I journal. I go to sleep and wake up early all on my own occasionally.
I think it's because of the day I talked to one of my closest friends for a long time. He hand I played truth or dare which somehow led into a very big, long, adult talk for hours. About all the important things we would like.But there was one difference.
He wants to grow up.
I think no matter what happens though, I'd like to finish my Twenty Wishes, and be there for my closest friends. I'd like to be happy this year for once. I'd like to do something epically big and remember it for as long as I can. Most of all though.
I'd like to be right here waiting for him when he comes back to me.
