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I dunno really what too write,
too much thoughts going around in my head.

I don't care if you read this or not,
neither I care if you comment or not,
I just wanna write what I feel and think.

Blurgh, school is going bad,
maybe its my own fault,
losing motivation, skipping classes.
I study hard for my exams, but everytime I have it I forget everything,
like a big black out,
its bothering me,
Im affraid I won't make it this year,
Im affraid I will need too leave my class and go too another,
and I don't want too
Also im affraid my mentor will be talking too my parents about me being almost never at school,
it will make my parents pissed and just like always they will de be dissapointed,
sigh like I can help it, I JUST CAN TALK TOO THEM,
I try too talk about my feelings with them,
but they just go over to another subject, like they don't care about me.

ergh, it seems im not de only one going trough deep s**t,
Lotsa friends of my are feeling shitty and are having problems,
like KC and Whitney,
and some other friends from the Guild,
People at my school,
It tears me apart,
why?
cause I care about my friends,
I feel what they feel, plus I feel my own feelings,

sigh yeah, I wonder if your still bothering too read this,
If you do I respect you, cause you have the patience too read someone elses problems,
not many people do
like this special eprson that dumbed me cause i only complained ONCE.

I can't helkp it though,
my life seems too be ehre to do everything wrong
I have too talk about my feelings, and people call it WRONG
i keep my feelings stuck in myself and people call it WRONG
I mean, stop confusing me, stop making me feeling shitty
stop making me feeling Like I don't even DESERVE it too live.

<//3

*shakes out of coldness...*
im freezing, and im gonna quit now,
oh yeah dont mind me being so less online these days,
My lives way too busy.