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I-I kept my act up in school and everyone beleived I was happy! It hurt so much to watch him pass me in the hallway and say nothing. Not even a nod or a smile. I almost lost it. He won't answer his phone either...I left him a message to call me back...he probably won't. Cuz he's an F-ING b*****d!!! But I love him anyway...He doesn't love me back...I miss talking to him and hanging out. I miss his smile...now he just ignores me and pretends I'm not there. It hurts. I wish I was out my misery...that I could just get over him. I tried convincing myself that Montanna was right and he's a jerk and he just wants to see me in pain. I even prayed that I would get over him...it's not working...Everytime I see him my heart speeds up and I get a rush of emotion. Now he's left me behind. I feel lost and alone...I keep trying to forget about him...I can't. Alex and his family has done a lot for my family. It hurts to let him go...but I guess he doesn't like me anymore...so I have to...Love you Alex!! crying crying crying crying crying