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Second best

never the most prized
never the most loved
never someone special


Second in command

never in control
never taking over
never standing up for herself


Second loved

never someone's treasure
never someone's most important
never the first choice


Second to know

never first to understand
never first to see
never first to feel good again


Second

Second

********

second


That's all she'll ever be.
All they'll ever want herNobody could love her the most.


No, she'll always be second to someone.
To a fling.

To a former lover.

To everyone.


So she gives up.

She quits.


So she forgets what love and happiness are.
And she just dives right in.

She has to expect pain.

She has to see it coming.


Or she'll lose

her ********

mind.

Her will is broken.

Her trust is gone.

Her temper is flared.


Little miss Second Best will make something of herself.

Something special.

Something unique.

Something irresistable.


If only she actually knew how.

But she doesn't.

Because everything she tries fails.

Miserably.


If only there were a way to be happy.

While unloved.

If only she were something more.

Than just a pretty face.


If only men weren't so crude.

Testosterone-driven ******** machines.

If only women weren't so lacking.

In that one thing she seems to crave.


If only she weren't so confused.

About love.

About life.

About herself


For some reason Im always this and I dont understand why they say you wouldnt undersand or you had to be there........people think just because Im mad and say harsh things just at moment its just about that thing it usely many so many things I dont get and they never tell me how am I going to know if you dont tell me....they wonder why I push away ...but there the one who pushed first.....