"God can take you from this earth but he can never take your memories from me."
So I find myself discovering life. I find myself discovering a lot of things actually. I'm answering more questions and making more philosophical statements too I guess. I'm no longer wanting to listen to the same music played on the radio over and over again, not wanting to listen to what's 'in' and what's known as 'out'. I don't want to watch regular television.
I want to watch the news and old black&white movies. I want to read about the tragedies of life and history and learn from them. I want to drink tea and sit outside, reading big books in pretty sundresses.
I want to have a tea party. I want to sit down on the ground and watch the 'big people' talk and complain. I want to be asked the same questions they answer and then be told that I wouldn't understand and that I'm too young. I want to separate form the world.
I want to watch the news and old black&white movies. I want to read about the tragedies of life and history and learn from them. I want to drink tea and sit outside, reading big books in pretty sundresses.
I want to have a tea party. I want to sit down on the ground and watch the 'big people' talk and complain. I want to be asked the same questions they answer and then be told that I wouldn't understand and that I'm too young. I want to separate form the world.
"The walls we build around us to keep out the sadness also keep out the joy."
I was recently asled a good question from one of the dearest people I know. They're an adult, like my father. His wife is ill, he has such a hard time. He treats us all like his family. But he wants to get away. He wants to get in his car and just drive far, far away.
'Why are adults so cold?'
'I think it's because adults put younger children through so much they just grow up to be the same way. Cold.'
'I think you're right. I think that's what we do.'
'I think so too.'
'Younger kids have the most feelings in the world. They feel more than adults. They understand more than adults.'
'That's why we're pushed down and put through so much. Adults don't like us thinking and feeling so much.'
'I think you're right.'
'I think so too.'
"I miss the Earth so much I miss my wife."
I think we all need to get away. We all need to drive far, dar away. We all need to just go. We need to run, drive, fly, whatever it takes to get out of here. To miss the earth. To see if it really is as easy as fairytales and miracles. If we really can drink tea in flowing pretty sundresses and big hats. If we can really sit on the ground like we did in kindergarten.
'I wish I was 15 again. I could relive all the good times.'
'But you'd have to relive all the bad times too.'
'I don't even remember when I was 15.'
'It's a hard life.'
"Really?'
'You cry a lot, you're either happy, addicted to drugs, lied to, or depressed.'
'I do that now.'
'Well then you're already living a 15 year old life. Then only difference: More experience.'
'You think a lot don't you Savana?'
'Most of the time.'
"I want to go back to kindergarten."
(We can all support the dreams. Support a cause.)
(We can all be a ray of sunshine for someone.)
