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Idk...im pretty bored..Cuddly bear keeps popping into my head...so wth Imma just write wtf's in my head.......

Know whats a cliche? When someone syas they'd do anything for their loved one, that thyd die for them, that they are there world. that they are everything to them. Its all cliche....I began thinknig of how I was saying those things,I am not cliche.....so..lets see whats rlly in my mind....

If I had to do something for cuddlybear it would be anything, cliche line yes but true.

Id drop dead slash myself in two for him. Name it and it's done. Really nothing could be this feeling so strong. I think everyday what would happen if he were to leave me. If he did one dreadful day I would die. Yes cliche again, but w/e. Though if he were to keep living I would be happy. Still die but i'd R.I.P and thats all I would need.....right?

Point taken....

Ok, if he were to die on me, time would freeze. That sound cliche? I think not. Time would stop flowing the whole world would just freeze. Just stay cold in one spot. Dullness would overcome everything. My world would turn gray. My heart would go black. My soul would just.....slowly be ripped into two pieces. These thoughts haunt me....

I have nightmares, but not like my old nightmares. For instance before I met cuddly bear my nightmares would be normal example- Being chased by a maneating monster or pirates or just something like that.

Now my nightmares include deep darkness, just overall blackholes. Not breathing. Blood pouring on the walls. Dying alone, dying with no love at all. Suffering....never ending suffering........these nightmares....i wake up crying form them........they r so unbearable......it so dreadful....I cant help.....but......jsut...let every emotion from me....jsut...spill when I wake up........</3