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The only reason I was angry was because all you would do was cry over 'him'.
I know that it hurts, I know- I've been there. I know exactly how you feel.

But what just boiled me up was,
here I am- giving you love and s**t-
and you not only ignore me and shove my affection away,
but you would say how alone you will be forever&ever&ever&ever&ever~
and just be all upset and all that blahblah

I understand your not ready for 'love'.
but I'm not asking you to be with me,
all I wanted to do was give you my affection-
so you'd know- someone loves you.
But you refused it. Even if you didn't know it.

It hurt me, because I don't give that affection to anyone other than very few
people. Like three. Your one of those three.

So it's like, here I am giving love that I NEVER give to anyone, straight from
the core of my feelings, and you get all selfish on me.
you didn't even regard me, once.

Which was the last thing I said to you. "your so selfish sometimes'.

I know this sounds all mean, but I like you alot.
And I just wanted to give you my luffles. D:
thats all T^T

so thats why I was angry.
Can't say I will feel the same, but who knows.
I do still care about you,
and even when we weren't talking I was thinking about you-
and how I thought you didn't need me- or missed me at all.
Because I know I don't mean much to you . . .

I guess.

~sigh~ Riku needs anti-depressants to.
I also have dysthymia. ;-;




Guess we share that same pain.



ily ;-;