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I've decided to post a entry here, rather than on myspace. I'm not entirely sure as to why, because Im pretty sure no one really reads them anyway. I just want to put my feelings down here in the hopes that some one will stumble upon them and realise how I feel today. So if Im a little harsh, perhaps its cus Im feeling a lil hurt.

This week and before that I was keeping myself busy with looking for a bike. And it worked, I was getting something I've wanted for so long. And going for a ride is so much fun. It kept my mind off things, off of what I have lost.
But still I feel empty, like there is still that hole that you left behind.
I thought that buying things for me, would fill that hole, and it has been keeping my mind off things...but still...

It hurts that it seems like you're over me already. Im glad that you seem to be much happier, Im sorry I tied you down. And it hurts to wonder if I really was crushing your free spirit. I hope if you do see this, that it doesn't bring you down.
But don't worry about me. Some how I'll be ok. No matter how alone I feel....I'll be ok.

Please though, be sensitive as to what you say to me. We may be friends now, but please don't be so quick to forget what I thought we once where. Certain things hurt when you just say them so freely to me.
Im not over you yet. I've just been pretending that my ship's not sinking. I miss you, I miss what we had once.