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	Satisfaction
	Satisfaction

Do you know that feeling? Feeling full..tired almost..pleased,satisfied..that's the word!

I let the psychotic booming surround my numbed senses,it violently flows threw my chest making it pop out threw my tight shirt. It moves me uncontrollably,flexing my body in ways that in reality I wouldn't dare fit my joints into.Bouncing on the tip of my heeled feet,loose skirt swinging with my dancing hips and wild hair waving as I bang and my head to the beat. I danced while keeping David's bare chest close to mine,holding on to his belt for dear life because I was certain I would fly too high and take a hard exciting yet deadly fall! I don't ever want this to end! We all scream our war cry against Reality.Yes, it was a war..we were fighting the cruel tactics of Reality...beating it to a pulp..stomping our dancing feat into its face! Jared pulls me to a nauseous twirl and up on his waist,holding me clumsily. We both laugh in which I'm sure it was joy. I push off his shoulders and return to my partner.David greets me with an exciting kiss,I opened my waiting lips and welcomed his thick tongue to slide onto mine,forcing a round smiley face imprinted pill down my throat.We part,like it was only business to be done. I dance more vigorously and exotically, my stomach twitches to spasm as I lay my back to the carpet,grinding and bumping it hard.Random beer was poured into my mouth as carefully as anyone in the room could pour. I shook off the bite in my jaw ready to get up til' David laid across me giggling like a child. Suddenly,my interest is caught....I can't express such excitement that shot my adrenalin.My body can only manage my lashes rising,pupils dilating to their fullest! A needle and lighter were being passed around.The depression of reality that became a need to be filled forced David to release me of his vibrating body and crawl like a beast,reaching the syringe. I ended up on the nearest couch,stabbing the steel into my veins and pushing the melted powder threw the open point.I relaxed,lulling my head back on the rim of the recliner.Throbbing lights dimmed more,my breathing came to a slow..this was a different effect to which I expected..maybe it was the combination of drugs that depressed me..or the drug I had just taken wasn't what it conceived itself to be.Black took my sight over,I dreamed..dreamless.

I only panicked for a moment when I wakened this morning.
David's drunk drowsy voice pulled me out of my feared nightmare of the unsuspected and back into the hated Reality. I quickly pulled my pants on and yanked my stained skirt off,slipped into my baggie Pink Floyd Hoodii and sunk into my normal depressed slump.Tried my best to keep the line of black strait on my burning lids,wiped mascara on my lashes..brushed black over the natural black under my eyes and finally scrunched and sprayed my hair. I thought of only that night today...I COULD be ashamed...I'm only ashamed that Reality has won again..but just once more..I will defeat it with the help of my worthy associates.We will defeat Reality! To. The. Death.

· Tue Apr 07, 2009 @ 01:43am · 0 Comments


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