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*wanders over from last entry* ninja
speaking of wasting time, why the hell am I NOT studing?! *whaps self over the head with drawing pad* I have two exams...and a powerpoint presentation to do well on. I'm gonna miss my Speech class, who knew that I'd like it by now? And its not just because that boy we all know is in it. ninja Anyhow, reading other's journals I realised how awful mine look. Random and emotional...silly but not in a fun way more of an airhead I suppose...though I am random and emotional (Blame my sign! For I am AQUARIUS! MUWHAHAHAHA! *hums song and wiggles in seat* "Bound for great genius or insanity" cool )
Anyhow! These journals show nothing of me, and a recent attack on my character really made me think about it. Though really how could I possibly write a satisfactory journal entry...or where to begin from where I left off? Last I really told anyone I deleted. So lets start waaaay back...*slaps on miner's cap and scuttles away*
hmm...*tsks* My, I certainly have done a poor job of this year. Kinda regret deleting my old entries...oh well. *sits back with a sigh* As of late I have been, can't say yearning as that seems a word too strong. But I really wanna get outta here, somewhere new, with real multi-faceted people, not just simple back-woods kinda persons. Sure midwestern people are fine, but I want a little life back in my life ya' dig? And I tell you, FARGO is certainly not high-time city action. rolleyes As of now I am conversing with an agreeable Australian. (w00t illiteration bitches!) Though its killing me physically for lack of sleep, I do enjoy it. *searches for lotion* wink I really need to take better care of myself though, i'm hardly eating, sleeping or drinking as of late, and my weight is going a bit crazy. Don't know why really, happens ocassionally...Sometimes I just don't bother sustaining myself.
Our local school district has rehearsed and shown their rendition of Peter Pan, I saw one practice and was thoroughly impressed. Too bad I never got a chance to watch it, dressed and all. Though thinking today as I Armor-alled the dash on our newest SAAB to join the pack, I stewed over the fact that I always wanted to go into acting, or performance...I could never do real acting of course but I always wanted to try at least. But I've always been held back.
"Shyness has a strange element of narcissism, a belief that how we look, how we perform, is truly important to other people."
- Andre Dubus
More than just the shyness I know, but thats a good quote I thought..found it the other night when I was up. Maybe if I get myself back up *demonic kitten Smudge jumps up on desk stareing expectantly for luff* to some degree of healthyness I'll audition for the summer's play *cat settles down and contently licks arm* whee Nothing better than cat-exfoliation. xd
ooo these are all good..Quotes on the Self
*stares for awhile, petting cat and listening to the purring* I mean no BS either...i'm really gonna try this Winter, more of an opposite then the previous...Hey maybe a laptop for Christmas as well...*laughs a little*
heheh if anyone reads these, TAKE THE LENGTH BIOTCHES....yeah I can never do anything smalll...i just keep going *bums around quote page for awhile*
Hope is like a bird that senses the dawn and carefully starts to sing while it is still dark.
--unknown
Imediate Goal; Computer compatible Microphone ninja
reminds me of 6th grade reading class. We were to read i think one book a month (which piff, is nothing) and write a report about it...I think for a two hundred page mini-book i wrote seven pages of summary...by hand...front and back. lol Jeebus *shakes head sadly* Weee random memories! There was this guy, you know those people who are like five feet tall for most of their childhood? The little people, right? Well I believe his name was Matt, I knew about four in my class alone. Names popular as Mike out there in Dee' Plains. I wanna say Stanton...but thats Travis Stanton. No idea who that is, someone I knew about. Matt...Shane perhaps? *taps skull* It took him eight months to read Harry Potter and the Sorcerors Stone. I think it took me four hours...God I wonder how those people all are, I often wish to just be there sometime during lunch at the highschool and see if anyone recognises me. i certainly wanna see how some grew up wink *coughCHRIScoughskaterpunkGag* ninja Only have a year or so before they all graduate and I'll probably never have a chance to see them again.
*pets arm* Gah...my erector pili muscles are workin' tonight...O.< My mother thinks my brother and I should go back to writing. We both have such extensive imaginations with no outlet dammit! We could be doing so well...I just wish I had SOMETHING. My drawing is lousey and my writings all gently curve towards the same idea...and too personal at that ninja I should really stop writing now, redface *sketches avatar still humming Aquarius* Take it easy, my hearties *deja vu question sweatdrop * I love you all....
-IF
 ~Insomnia_Forever~ · Sat Nov 12, 2005 @ 11:34pm · 1 Comments |
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