Welcome to Gaia! :: View User's Journal | Gaia Journals

So, I made the mistake of putting my happiness in front of Neara's last night. I went to a party with a friend from work ((who is gay btw)) and we got really trashed... I got super emotional cuz I missed being with a guy and my friend was being super sweet trying to cheer me up and stuff and well one thing lead to another... I'm so torn right now because when every I do something that makes me happy ((Last night was the happiest night I've had in a very VERY long time)) I hurt the ones I love. I love Neara with all of my heart and I want to be there for her and help her with Niko but... I'm gay... I will always be gay...