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I've always said that Pain and Suffering are the backbone of the world, and im honestly wondering if maybe i was wrong. Does The Suffering Never End? Yes. It does. And im not talking about death, either. The world is full of people that want to help you, that want to hold you in their arms and confort you, and you have to understand that maybe you just havent found him yet..

Or maybe he's just trying to slay his own demons.

Either way, Suicide, Self induced coma, Bloodloss, Sadnes, Tears, all that [********] s**t... They hurt us. Maybe you dont care about it that much, But i do. Your friends do. I sat on your profile page and watched that Video you made. Each and everyone of them are your friends, Pixie... You have to understand that it hurts us when you hurt yourself, or speak of it.

I guess you could do what i think you are and leave before you even finish reading this.. Or maybe you'll keep reading. It's up to you.

I have used a razor on my body so many times i cant remember how many times i've done it. My left wrist is covered in scars, and im beguining to develope cancer. I dont have the freedom you do. The docrots say that it wont bother me untill im in my 30's, but i should still care.

You have alot, you know.. I cant even count how many people are in that music video. And on top of that, You have someone there to love you. I dont have, nor deserve, that luxury.

I wish i could tell you something that would make all your pain go away, but i cant. You have to be strong, you have to look evil and cruelty in the face, and spit. You can do this. I know you can.

-Nia-