February 25, 2009 Wednesday 9:51PM
To my dearest Sennyo,
I never did write you an anniversary card, forgive me. I was...out of it. Although you are gone from me now, I'm still unsure whether or not I can feel your presence any longer. Are you still there? Forgive me. Please forgive me of the sins I've committed against you. It's now been a year and sixteen days since your passing. Please, if it may not bother you, send my regards to them.
[End Letter]
Today at This Person's youth-group thing It was so enjoyable. Glass and This Person talked about all sorts of things with Victory, Red Blank, Victory's younger-blood, and Ice Warrior. Glass and This Person That I Am talked about cutting for a few minutes, and, oh, it was ever so nice! This Person could never get this kind of conversation that the school This Person That I Am goes to, never. And even if so, it would abruptly end due to it being in school, surrounded by inconsistent phonies and blind humans, and due to it being in school period and classes always ending and starting. It was so nice. We were playing spin the cell-phone (although nothing ever did happen besides false kisses, awkward hugs (for we were at our small picnic table), and high-fives. As the night drew closer to its end, Glass made a sarcastc comment of how Ice Warrior could chose two girls and then Glass himself. Ice chose This Person That I Am and Victory's younger-blood. This Person was so flattered. And so, Glass was left with Victory and Red Blank, with whom giving them odd yet funny nicknames that This Person cannot recall. It always makes me so sad, that our youth-group thing only lasts so long and only once in a week, and sometimes not even all of us are together. M, for instance, was not there this week. It always makes me so sad, that we must part our ways. They to their public school and This Person to the school that This Person is made to go to. It's not force. It certainly isn't. Nothing is by force. It is due to our own human weaknesses that we are 'forced' to do things, whether physical or mental weakness. This Person That I Am is simply unwilling to stop to make a change, or attempt to do so.
I'm so sorry, Sennyo-dono. Gomen nasai, watashi no kami-sama, watashi no aishite. Please forgive me. In the past week or so, I have been unable to dream with them. I...I even was to full of fatigue this past weekend to mentally escape with whom This Person calls Them! I'm so sorry, Senno-dono. Please forgive the sins I've committed against you.
[End Log]
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