I figure I should start writing more in my journal, seeing as I only do every few months. I need a place where I can just let out my true feelings without making anyone too concerned in reality, or people on gaia either flaming me for what I said, thinking everything I say is a lie, which is one hundred precent wrong.Everything I say to friends that is on my mind or which is happening is true, even if it does sound a little stupid or whatever.
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Lately, I've had stress pile up slowly, even though it doesn't show through. Surprisingly none of it is from school, seeing as the courses are actually easy, but it's people around me who are slapping me in the face with stress. It feels like a rollercoaster at some times, but others, it's okay to have a little stress added, life isn't perfect after all =]
Tonight has been..a very bothersome night. hearing about how my aunt and uncle( brother and sister) are fighting over the stupidest thing, has somehow ended up in him criticizing her children and house, although he has never even raised a kid in his life, and he only got his brand spanking new house because of his wife's mother's will that she left for her. It pisses me off that he has been talking smack, not only to everyone in my family, but including one of my best friends! It makes me want to go take a thousand pound weight and drop it on his big head. I only wish I knew what he said about me, I know everyting else he has said..except for what was directed to me, other than when I was under the age of five, maybe we get along better than anyone else, beats me.
Also, another factor leading to this stress, isn't really stressful, just very depressing and makes me feel uneasy and emotional everytime I think about it. Though I am not going to talk about this.
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The last hour has been an okay start to letting this pile of stress settle, and it feels good to write about this in my journal, instead of actually speaking my mind, instead I get to type it, and not mean the wrong thing.
To finish this small rant and talk about piles of stress off, I found a few quotes and songs that help pick me up after, just reading or listening to them.
Quotes;;
-All life is an experiment. The more experiments you make the better
-All our dreams can come true, if we have the courage to pursue them
-A picture is a poem without words
Songs;;
Believe by Cher
Et c'est pas fini by Star Academie
Eh eh by Lady Gaga
Plastic smile by Perfume
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