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Before I say anything. Ghosty, I dare you to type two sentences that are completely capitalized and puncuated correctly. Both of them must have at least seven words in them. So, nyaah.
Oh, and you have to post them here.

I'll save best for last.

Well, the other day, I saw Zaaaaak. It was kinda awkward. I got off the bus at my but stop, and I heard another one coming around the corner. Just as I was walking away from the stop, I turned around out of curiosity and saw that it was Zak.
He acted as if nothing had happened... I think that was the day that Xavier moved, too.

[You know what's really weird? Lately, I haven't been calling Juan 'Juan'. I've been calling him 'Juanito'.]

Oh! Oh! I never told you peoples. Xavy-chan(Xavier) moooooved! gonk gonk gonk To Japan... Waaaaaahhhh! crying crying crying Grr, I miss him.... And his annoying lil brother, too(Jalyn)... **sniff**

But... you know what I realized a while back? I'm.... I'm afraid of Zak, now. It's hard not to me. He made me hurt so much, that... that it's hard to let it go. I truely believe that I loved him, and it just hurt so bad... I mean, if I start warming up to him again and seeing him more often, who's to say that love won't be revived? And if it is, the only thing that will happen is me getting hurt again, I can feel it in my soul...
And... that experience with Zak... has held me back from Juan. Now, I can't even admit to myself that I like Juanito, because he's like Zak in a way I can't explain, and... and something's holding me back.
There's a song that sort of goes with me being scared of Zak. I'm too lazy to go look up all the lyrics, but I'll type some of it.

'It was around 11:30
When I realized I missed you
Sittin' at home,
All alone, thinking,
'What did I just do?'
The feeling was strong,
Comin' on, and I knew I wanted you
But somethin' inside held me back...
Boy, you got me scared of you.

Got me afraid to let my love go.
Is it my heart that I should follow?
Got me afraid to let myself go,
Got me scared of you.

If I let go,
I don't know if my heart would remain strong...'

Uhm, yeah.

TIME FOR THE BEST!! <3333333333333333333333333333333333333

Hopefully, I'll be getting baptized soon! <33333 And we're gonna try and get Urk-chan's dad to baptize meh! EEE, I'm so excited! And then, and then, I can go to confirmation class!
Gwaheee!
I was squeeling and jumping. whee But, really. I've always wanted to go to church, and get baptized, and just all around be more active in my religeous life, but my parents never have time to take me anywhere; or they're not feeling well, which happens a lot... Well, they both have medical problems, so I can't put that against them, I guess.