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Sara is wondering if she is skitzifrenic or however you spell that, because she has herself, and then a total dark, emo, depressed side that she supposes is Ellie. Every time Sara goes away, Ellie is out to play(or cry). Sara feels bad for ellie, but ellie just wants to die, and sara doesn't want to.

and whoever i am, idk what to do

i'm sara, but i'm ellie...
or
not... ellie
sara....
who am i
who the hell am i
who are you
who is we?
idk
i
d
k
any
more

sometimes i know when ellie is out, and it makes sence that there are two in me
there are times when i just don't think, that's when i'm sara, when i'm myself. other times, ellie is out and she's all depressed and never ok.

grr

i can't tell who i am anymore
if i do have 2 in me, ellie is out the most
she's so dark most of the time, so depressed D:

but sara(me i guess) is just bored all the time. i don't think much bad, but have a headache most the time. i don't mind life as much as ellie, and i can actually have fun and smile for real.

i donno who i is anymore