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As much as I would like to be right now... yet another night without sleep. For those of you who don't know... Rais n I broke up last night via phone.... Lame huh? Um yeah... Haven't really stopped crying since n it is now 7am. 4 years of my god damn life wasted. Well, not really wasted... more like ripped out from underneath me. I hate the feeling of heart break... it's really something you don't get used to. Rais owned my heart n he still does, but it's shattered now ******** broken into a million little pieces that no one is ever going to be able to put back together. I'm done with love because quite frankly I can't take another heart break like this. I just can't handle it. I haven't been this upset since... gah... Don't worry... I won't do anything like that again. I still have people who love me n I can't hurt them with something like that. Um yeah... my eyes hurt my head is pounding n my asthma is being a b***h so I'm gonna lay down now n try n get some shut eye... like that's really gonna happen.