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i cant fathom my own thought.

i want to scream!
i want to cry

i want to express wht's inside

i hate u. i hate u.

i dont want to beg u to stay coz i know u want to let go. i want you to stay but i know you want to go away from me.

i thought i am ready
i thought i am prepared for this
i thought i will feel no pain
i thought you still love me.

but... all this thoughts are all wrong
i was wrong
i was very wrong


i understand, but, my heart dont. i dont know what to say. i dont know how to react. all i know is the pain. the pain that i am enjoying now. how can i mend this broken heart. how can i....? i want to cry. i want to scream. i want to tell you whats inside. but i dont know how. how?
no tears are coming outside. maybe those tears are trapped inside my heart. this is te consequence of loving you.


much you make me suffer.


but still i dont blame you for what i feel right now. i cant blame you.


after all, i still love you. i am willing to wait. wait until tommorrow. tommorrow will be forever. i dont know....


love you.




lee.


thank you for the love and the pain.

thank you for everything.



im still holding on your word.