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UNSPOKEN

Why is it that when I have the perfect opportunity to speak my mind,the words that I have to say disappear like they wern't even there. If i never speak my my mind will what i think matter? would it effect the world if i didnt say a word? Or is it when I finaly get the courage to talk no1 would listen. That makes me question if my existence evenreal or am I just invisable. This must be a dream, because i can hearsomeone crying. It... its my voice. It cant be,but it is. My mouth is gone! It has been replaced by a zipper with constrictionand a lock. No.No.No. This cant be happning. I finaly found the words I want to say now. And now i cant even say them. How ironic. Now i havefallin into a ses pool of peoples lies, thoughts, feelings, sentences and most inportantly their daydreams. They mean nothing to me if i cant see my ********! It doesnt even matter now my thoughts,feelings,and wordsare gone.Im just a liveing robot. my heart just as cold as the steal im made of. I can feel them watcing me, all eyes on me now.No matter if I have to kill myself i will be heard. If it comes to that.