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i will start by saying MERRY CHRISTMAS and HAPPY HOLIDAYS to everyone on gaia and beyond......on the subject of my uncle he is doing ok i guess hes kinda positive when he wants to be but verry down in the mouth most days other than that he is doin fine but seeing him in that hospital bed just worries me like what if in the middle of the night we get a call that he has passed on what if we get down there and hes fine one minute and then the next thing we know he has passed on ill think its all my fault i always do when that sort of thing happens ithink there was something that i could have done to stop that from happening but there never is im always the one told to shut up becaues i dont know better but i could be a better nurse than most of the nurses that ive seen in all the hospitals ive been in and to all of this stuff just makes me so mad all i want to do is scream at them to listen but ill just get told to shut up like always....they think im just some little child that dosent know better but i do ive seen ppl lay in bed and just rot literally and i know alot about saving lives but im just a little 13 year old what do i know crying crying crying crying ...bye for now....alisha