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The Ultamite T...and a pice of his mind Just junk about me and my feelings at that moment of time and space. nothing major. unless i say it is but thats not likely to happen anytime soon


T-Man V3
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Gotta knock a little harder.....
Gotta knock a little harder
Happiness is just a word to me
And it might have meant a thing or two
If I'd had known the difference

Emptiness, a lonely parody
And my life, another smokin' gun
A sign of my indifference

Always keepin' safe inside
Where no one ever had a chance
To penetrate or break in

Let me tell you some have tried
But I would slam the door so tight
That they could never get in

Kept my cool under a lock and key
And I never shed a tear
Another sign of my condition

Fear of love or bitter vanity
That kept me on the run
The main events at my confession

I kept a chain upon my door
That would shake the shame of Cain
Into a blind submission

The burning ghost without a name
Was still calling all the same
But I just wouldn't listen

The longer I'd call
The further I'd crawl
The further I'd crawl
the harder I'd fall
I was crawlin' into the fire

The more that I saw
The further I'd fall
The further I'd fall
the lower I'd crawl
I kept fallin' into the fire
Into the fire
Into the fire

Suddenly it occured to me
The reason for the run and hide
Had totaled my existence

Everything left on the other side
could never be much worse than this
But I could go the distance

I face the door and all my shame
Tearin' off each piece of chain
Until they all were broken

But no matter how I tried
The other side was locked up so tight
The door it wouldn't open

Give it all that I got
And started to knock
Shouted for someone
To open the lock
I just gotta get through the door

And the more that I knocked
The hotter I got
The hotter I got
the harder I'd knock
I just gotta break through the door

Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Gotta knock a little harder
Break through the door


..... sweatdrop My life story





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HeavenlyRaindrops
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Wed Dec 10, 2008 @ 03:11am


that... crying ....was..... crying .....so..... crying ....deep.... crying


T-Man V3
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Wed Dec 10, 2008 @ 03:17am


yea, i first heard this song when i was either 15 or 16. and til this day, it continues to be a reflection of my life. i nevr let anyone in my pesonal life, my mentality, and especialy my heart (since it was frozen solid) but once my heart melted, i started to realize that not every one was trying to take advantage of me or hurt me, but due to my cold ways it was to late to try to fix things. so now i'm trying to break down this door, wall, coccon that i've sheild myself in and start to branch out to others. especialy if i want to realize my dreams. 3nodding


HeavenlyRaindrops
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Wed Dec 10, 2008 @ 03:24am


~starts crying~ cry idk how much more i can take of this.....


T-Man V3
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Wed Dec 10, 2008 @ 03:26am


oh, don't cry. i'm sorry hayley, i didn't mean to make you sad or cry


HeavenlyRaindrops
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Wed Dec 10, 2008 @ 09:38pm


no,it's wasn't you...it was about the guy i like having a girlfriend...but it's no biggie now, they broke up neutral


T-Man V3
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Thu Dec 11, 2008 @ 02:52am


oh,....well i guess thats a goodie....for you atleast mrgreen


HeavenlyRaindrops
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Fri Dec 12, 2008 @ 01:40pm


now he's all sad and stuff 'cause i guess he really like her. but they've dated before and each time they said it felt too weird, it felt like they were dating their sister and brother. i think he really loves her =(


T-Man V3
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Fri Dec 12, 2008 @ 05:07pm


that may be true, but its how he loves her, thats the thing he has to figure out. does he love her as a friend? Sister? or an actual lover. love can be hard to define sometimes, but eventualy he'll come to an solid answer. who knows, but i'm still rooting for you sis! 3nodding mrgreen


HeavenlyRaindrops
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Sat Dec 13, 2008 @ 05:44am


well...i haven't completely figured him out yet so...i don't really know what he thinks of her =( i need to find a way to get inside of his head...any suggestions??


T-Man V3
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Sat Dec 13, 2008 @ 06:12am


hmmm, well. just talk to him like you do with me. become his friend and kinda slowly pick into his mind. sooner or later he'll start to oen up to you more and more until he just lets his heart out to you. it'll take a while but, slow and steady wins the race sometimes. basicly you have to earn his trust. don't be too forceful, just let him know that you care about him and your their whenever he needs someone to talk to. 3nodding but, not all guys are the same, so just try whatever method you think wil work best, you don't want to be too forceful about it an at the same time, you don't want to apear cold blooded. just be yourself and hopefuly he'll get the hint and come along to yuou. slowly but surely mrgreen hopefuy that helps a bit sweatdrop i suck at advice sometimes.


HeavenlyRaindrops
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Sat Dec 13, 2008 @ 06:22am


well, the thing is, i've known him since third grade and i've been his friend ever since biggrin but, yeah, i'll figure something out 3nodding


T-Man V3
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Sat Dec 13, 2008 @ 06:27am


oh i see. well then, i guess the real task is how to get him to notice you as something more than a friend. or maybe he already does, lol. its hard to fully understand others at times. you can never really read thier minds, but. i guess just take it one day at a time.


HeavenlyRaindrops
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Sat Dec 13, 2008 @ 06:35am


that's kinda my philosophy i guess...i never live the same day twice so...yeah lol


T-Man V3
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Sat Dec 13, 2008 @ 06:46am


lol, well thats a goodie. i don't really have an offical life phylosaphy. i guess mines would have to be, float where ever the wind blows. sweatdrop


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