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is this how it is?
no more sunshine and cupcakes for me?
haha ok i see how its gonna be
im not over you
i cant hide it
its too much
this saddening rush
emotion explosion
and all i do is hurt
i miss you to death
i can not ever forget
haunting my lonely mind
and its seems to me
that everything reminds me of you
your just afraid
i figured it out
your too scared to get hurt
yet look at me hurting
over and over and over again
and you'd think i'd have my fill
but no not yet cause i still want you
let you go ... impossible
i'll let you think i have i know the truth
i cant. i've lost far to much
and come so far just to dead end
how classic
my expectations were low for you
i only wish i had more time with you
to tell you the truth
to let you know that i can not let go
that i love you so and
im willing to do anything for you
please dont go
i saw it coming and it still hurt
i have lost my ablity to trust
i refuse to let you go
like all the rest i just dropped
i cant lose you thou oh no
cheated on and lied to, used and abused
but you; just simple heartbreak
of them all i only loved you
only you and i watch you
just pull it beating out of my chest
rip it a part and shatter it on the ground
dont even stick around to pick up any pieces
the full feelings i still have when were near
but my empty chest is left now cuz u left me
your right if ur not happy with what you hav
u dont deserve it, but i deserve you
i'll be your angel in the dark
i'll be your princess you'll see
i'll be whatever you wish me to be
the hole in my chest
like a bullet shell so empty
my brick wall is crumbling
i let you in and you killed me
im no saint im nothing but a sinner
i've paid my dues and im done
my debit is cleared and my body numb
pills and thrills and knives and guns
all used to be so fun till i slit my wrist
and it went numb with blood
so kindal the pain inside
fuel the rage and clean your slate
dont dare follow my path
or you'll be scarred in my wrath
shattered and toren apart
broken like a porcelain doll
mangalled high and strung low
dont tell me that im the one who is bad
im just trying to escape my unwanted fate
and remove these iron bars infront of me
and the angels sing their symphany
sweet angles of musality
bringing me down to reality
and cheerish the clouds and the rain
and they sing me to sleep
and if i could be anywhere in the world today
and if i could bring anyone with me
i would take you to the ocean
along the salty beach
at dusk in the city and have you walk with me
now i just wish you were with me
but i dont wanna linger long in my misery
it does nothing positive for me
so move along and keep head strong
but maybe i just cant
yea maybe i failed
i gave it my all and crumbled down
you left me in shambles of melancholy bliss
in my desolate mind with all its tricks
and that girl has a fool over you
but you'll never know
so simple minded and calm
but no boii in this world
nobody is as much like me as you
and all our random da ja vu
so crank up the tunes
cause nomatter what i'm still gonna be in love with you
and maybe its a waste of my breath
and i know its not right
and i sound so selfish
but inside i need us to survive
sweet love of full feelings
your charming allure i lust after
becuase i need you and i never knew
i would hav to lose you so damn soon
sweet flowers autumn bloom
and winters chilly claw of doom
maybe i just cant rescue you
cause im all alone
and it not worth going through
to save the lives of those who hurt you
but im stuck here and thats what i do
so gather the souls and form a smile
watch it fade after a while
this happy scene is make believe
because i dont think you should see
what you've done to me
all the tears, i hav to hide my eyes
because i want you to know and never see
the tears from me
now that im drowning
but i will not die no i will not die
im not on the verge of suicide
no not this time
because of that hope
maybe ima dope to think
you'd not let go
but i know whats in your soul
and i see what you dont believe i see
and i need you to know
that i took a deeper looke from the start
and when you left me it totally crushed my heart
and you said not to be sad
that you were not mad
but the reasoning
you gave to me
is too hard to believe
its not good enough for you to do such a thing to me
and all i ever wanted and all i ever needed
was giving to me by you
and all i ask of you
is a simple kiss goodbye..