Alone, hoplessly searching for ways to take away the pain this loneliness has inflicted on me. Trying to search for ways to overcome this feeling of hoplessness that has been brought upon me by the startling truth of reality, it hurts me very much to witness people that are happy and living their lives....why can't i be like that? Why can't i be normal?.... why cant i feel peace at mind?....whats wrong trying to search for answers in the mindless abyss of void and terror?.....so few people end up there....Why can't i be happy? Be free from this burden i carry on my shoulders? This feeling of retchedness tearing away at me day and night always there to remind me of the pain i suffer.....slowly being eaten away by the startling facts of reality....trying to block it out does me no good....making myself beleive a bunch of pathetic useless lies...makes me feel a little better...but i know it's never going to be true...this little world of mine that i created...
all these hurtful things remind me of the gaping whole thats left of me.....i try to block out images of my painful future....by replacing it with a future thats happy and bright.....hopelss and left alone...i can't stand it....it hurts me so much....one day i promise i'll make it all better....by taking away every known emotion...that is known to break you and replace it with everlasting serenity
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NumblyLifeless Community Member 
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