Scoobygirl2u [11:14 P.M.]: the only thing i did say that he might tell yah is what i said in chat with calvin
mikeymartini1992 [11:14 P.M.]: ooo
Scoobygirl2u [11:15 P.M.]: Scoobygirl2u [11:03 P.M.]: he makes it so hard sometimes i wish i never met him life would be so easier, sometimes like i wish he would have killed himself when he was suicidal , it's unfair the s**t he does i wish he could see through my eyes like just for once
Scoobygirl2u [11:16 P.M.]: but that was like from when we were talking about the forgetting scenaro
mikeymartini1992 [11:17 P.M.]: u kno im like...crying right now right
mikeymartini1992 [11:17 P.M.]: i cant believe u said i should have killed myself
Scoobygirl2u [11:17 P.M.]: i was upset
mikeymartini1992 [11:17 P.M.]: but i didnt do anyting to you
Scoobygirl2u [11:17 P.M.]: i say stupid things
Scoobygirl2u [11:18 P.M.]: it better me tell youu what i said then someone else
Scoobygirl2u [11:18 P.M.]: if you knew the whole thing u might understand but it's hard mike it really is to tell you the stuff we say
mikeymartini1992 [11:19 P.M.]: but why, ive tried sooo hard to be a good friend to you
mikeymartini1992 [11:19 P.M.]: u kno this really hurts me inside, it really does
Scoobygirl2u [11:20 P.M.]: i know but i wouldn't have wanted edmond to have told you that
Scoobygirl2u [11:20 P.M.]: i thought it would be better to hear it from me then him
mikeymartini1992 [11:20 P.M.]: well
mikeymartini1992 [11:20 P.M.]: okay
mikeymartini1992 [11:20 P.M.]: but still i have tries my hardest to be a friend to you
Scoobygirl2u [11:21 P.M.]: i know
mikeymartini1992 [11:21 P.M.]: if you would have known how horrible my life was for the past like 5 months
mikeymartini1992 [11:21 P.M.]: then yould understand
Scoobygirl2u [11:22 P.M.]: i try
mikeymartini1992 [11:22 P.M.]: i know you have it bad too
mikeymartini1992 [11:22 P.M.]: but were pretty much poor and tim has to work two jobs
mikeymartini1992 [11:22 P.M.]: and ive just been really stressedlately
Scoobygirl2u [11:23 P.M.]: you wanna c our conversatiions so you know what going on
mikeymartini1992 [11:23 P.M.]: sure
mikeymartini1992 [11:32 P.M.]: so really its my presence that makes u upset?
Scoobygirl2u [11:33 P.M.]: no sometimes the things u say
Scoobygirl2u [11:33 P.M.]: i like being around you
mikeymartini1992 [11:33 P.M.]: i like being around u too
mikeymartini1992 [11:33 P.M.]: and do i manipulate u are hurt ur feelings in any way
Scoobygirl2u [11:34 P.M.]: sometimes
mikeymartini1992 [11:36 P.M.]: u tell me how?
Scoobygirl2u [11:39 P.M.]: yah sure
Scoobygirl2u [11:39 P.M.]: well actually i basically just wanna tell you what i told edmond
mikeymartini1992 [11:40 P.M.]: k go ahead
Scoobygirl2u [11:42 P.M.]: like i feel so bad cuz i can't be perfect for you... i don't undrestand why i didn't grow up right and i feel like i'm wasting my time doning things i wanna do i just wanna be there for you but it hurts when my mom disapproves
mikeymartini1992 [11:42 P.M.]: u are one of the best friends ive ever had
mikeymartini1992 [11:42 P.M.]: ur pretty much perfect
Scoobygirl2u [11:43 P.M.]: and now i try hard to make it right i just wanted you to be proud of me but i never am gonna be good enough for you i can't pretend that and i can't change myself i guess we lost it all nothing last forever i guess i'll try not to think about the pain i feel inside you don't even know that you used to be my hero
mikeymartini1992 [11:43 P.M.]: i still can me ur hero
mikeymartini1992 [11:44 P.M.]: and im verry proud of you
mikeymartini1992 [11:44 P.M.]: its prety much my fault for not showing it
Scoobygirl2u [11:45 P.M.]: all the days i spent with you now seem so far away and it feels like you don't care anymore and i can't stand another fight it's so hard to just talk to you but you don't understand
mikeymartini1992 [11:46 P.M.]: honestly if i didnt care about u and if i wasnt proud of you, then i would have just let you commit suicide off that overpass
mikeymartini1992 [11:46 P.M.]: but i didnt
mikeymartini1992 [11:46 P.M.]: i wanted you to be here with me
mikeymartini1992 [11:46 P.M.]: hello
Scoobygirl2u [11:47 P.M.]: hey sorry ryan is on the phone with me he's spazzing
mikeymartini1992 [11:47 P.M.]: oh
mikeymartini1992 [11:47 P.M.]: but anyway
Scoobygirl2u [11:47 P.M.]: cuz edmond told him what i said
mikeymartini1992 [11:47 P.M.]: i really do care alot about you and i wish you could see that
mikeymartini1992 [11:49 P.M.]: u still there?
Scoobygirl2u [11:49 P.M.]: ehm
mikeymartini1992 [11:49 P.M.]: i just want u to know that i really care alot about you and i dont wanna see you hurt
mikeymartini1992 [11:49 P.M.]: and i really dont mean to make you sad or anyting
mikeymartini1992 [11:50 P.M.]: hello
Scoobygirl2u [11:51 P.M.]: sorry i don't really know what to say
mikeymartini1992 [11:51 P.M.]: its alright
mikeymartini1992 [11:51 P.M.]: but just why cant you see that i love you with all my heart?
mikeymartini1992 [11:52 P.M.]: i mean when you called me to tell me you were backfrom camp, i was like excited to finaly see you again
Scoobygirl2u [11:52 P.M.]: i don't know i have a way of pushing people away
mikeymartini1992 [11:53 P.M.]: just try and understand
mikeymartini1992 [11:53 P.M.]: u really dont know how much this makes me feel bad
mikeymartini1992 [11:54 P.M.]: i was having a good day and now i feel like s**t
mikeymartini1992 [11:54 P.M.]: its not all your fault
mikeymartini1992 [11:54 P.M.]: just yah
Scoobygirl2u [11:54 P.M.]: it is i always end up making u have a bad day
mikeymartini1992 [11:54 P.M.]: no you dont
mikeymartini1992 [11:54 P.M.]: its just
mikeymartini1992 [11:55 P.M.]: i dont know
Scoobygirl2u [11:55 P.M.]: it's just that i do
Scoobygirl2u [11:55 P.M.]: that's what i do with everyone
Scoobygirl2u [11:56 P.M.]: everyone i ever gotten close with i do this to
mikeymartini1992 [11:56 P.M.]: its not just you
mikeymartini1992 [11:56 P.M.]: its sort of my fault for not acting like a good friend to you
Scoobygirl2u [11:57 P.M.]: you have always been a good friend mike
mikeymartini1992 [11:57 P.M.]: some how i just fell like ive done wrong somewhere
mikeymartini1992 [11:57 P.M.]: and i dont even know how i did it
Scoobygirl2u [11:58 P.M.]: you didn't
Scoobygirl2u [11:58 P.M.]: it's me i push people away
Scoobygirl2u [11:58 P.M.]: i'm not a people person i am more of a loner then anything else
mikeymartini1992 [11:58 P.M.]: i just wanna have a good friendship with you is all
Scoobygirl2u [11:59 P.M.]: i know
Scoobygirl2u [11:59 P.M.]: it's really hard if i keep hurting you ...
Scoobygirl2u [11:59 P.M.]: and it's not fair to yoiu
Scoobygirl2u [11:59 P.M.]: you*
mikeymartini1992 [12:00 A.M.]: well then just dont call me names or anyting and act like you wanna hang out with me, and ill do the same, and well be fine
Scoobygirl2u [12:01 A.M.]: i don't call yah names anymore except jar jar
mikeymartini1992 [12:01 A.M.]: lol ok
mikeymartini1992 [12:01 A.M.]: but still just act like you want me there with you
Scoobygirl2u [12:01 A.M.]: why do you put up with me?
mikeymartini1992 [12:02 A.M.]: because
mikeymartini1992 [12:02 A.M.]: YOU ARE ONE OF MY BEST FRIENDS
mikeymartini1992 [12:02 A.M.]: AND I LOVE YOU
Scoobygirl2u [12:03 A.M.]: why do you love me if i act like i don't want to be around you? and if i cause you so much aggravation?
Scoobygirl2u [12:03 A.M.]: wouldn't it just be easier to give up?
mikeymartini1992 [12:03 A.M.]: NO
mikeymartini1992 [12:04 A.M.]: because i do love you
mikeymartini1992 [12:04 A.M.]: and im never gonna give uo
mikeymartini1992 [12:04 A.M.]: up*
Scoobygirl2u [12:05 A.M.]: why won't you it'll make you a whole lot happier and easier
mikeymartini1992 [12:05 A.M.]: um no it wont
mikeymartini1992 [12:05 A.M.]: see you are like the esther of sylvania
mikeymartini1992 [12:05 A.M.]: and ive even told her that
mikeymartini1992 [12:06 A.M.]: every one has rough patches in their friendships
mikeymartini1992 [12:06 A.M.]: but it takes good ones to patch it right
mikeymartini1992 [12:06 A.M.]: up right*
Scoobygirl2u [12:07 A.M.]: you are so stubborn
mikeymartini1992 [12:07 A.M.]: WHY
mikeymartini1992 [12:07 A.M.]: because i wanna stay friends?
mikeymartini1992 [12:07 A.M.]: how does that make me stubborn
mikeymartini1992 [12:07 A.M.]: ?
Scoobygirl2u [12:07 A.M.]: cuz it would be so easy just to give up
Scoobygirl2u [12:07 A.M.]: you wouldn't feel liike s**t
Scoobygirl2u [12:08 A.M.]: and i wouldn't feel the way i do
mikeymartini1992 [12:08 A.M.]: giving up is a horrible thing
mikeymartini1992 [12:08 A.M.]: if i were to give up on you before...you would be dead by now
mikeymartini1992 [12:08 A.M.]: but no, i stuck with you for thick and thin
Scoobygirl2u [12:09 A.M.]: don't be vain i could have lived through that i've always gottn through by myself and i always will
mikeymartini1992 [12:09 A.M.]: hmmm
mikeymartini1992 [12:09 A.M.]: sarah please
mikeymartini1992 [12:10 A.M.]: just understand that i love you and i would do anything for you
Scoobygirl2u [12:10 A.M.]: mike saying i love you doresn't mean anything it's what you do to the people you love that matters
mikeymartini1992 [12:11 A.M.]: well ill show it
mikeymartini1992 [12:11 A.M.]: if youll be willing to give me a chance
Scoobygirl2u [12:11 A.M.]: i don't want you to
mikeymartini1992 [12:11 A.M.]: why
Scoobygirl2u [12:12 A.M.]: i want you to forget about me that would be best for you and for me ...
mikeymartini1992 [12:13 A.M.]: well i dont want to,we've had great times together, and i neverwanna forget that
mikeymartini1992 [12:14 A.M.]: well if i do then what am i gonna do when i see you throughout school and stuff
Scoobygirl2u [12:15 A.M.]: ill avoid you you won't have to worry bout it
mikeymartini1992 [12:15 A.M.]: what about edond
mikeymartini1992 [12:15 A.M.]: edmond*
mikeymartini1992 [12:15 A.M.]: hes my friend too you kno
Scoobygirl2u [12:15 A.M.]: that's finee i'm cutting my ties with him to
mikeymartini1992 [12:16 A.M.]: so youre gonna forget about him too
mikeymartini1992 [12:16 A.M.]: ?
Scoobygirl2u [12:16 A.M.]: probably
Scoobygirl2u [12:16 A.M.]: it's not fair what i do to him either
mikeymartini1992 [12:16 A.M.]: *sigh* honestly sarah, i really dont know what has gotten into you
mikeymartini1992 [12:17 A.M.]: u have to go, and u probably wont ever hear from me again
mikeymartini1992 [12:17 A.M.]: but just realise that i still love you and i always will
mikeymartini1992 [12:17 A.M.]: goodbye
Scoobygirl2u [12:20 A.M.]: u know it's because i hate seeing you when your hurt and worse when i'm the one who causes it and i'm always the one who cause it
mikeymartini1992 [12:20 A.M.]: sarah i know you just play with me with that stuff
mikeymartini1992 [12:20 A.M.]: and yeah u go too far sometimes
mikeymartini1992 [12:21 A.M.]: but i tell you when you do and u end up stopping it
Scoobygirl2u [12:21 A.M.]: but i always upset you and i don't even try to .....
mikeymartini1992 [12:22 A.M.]: u dont always upset me
Scoobygirl2u [12:22 A.M.]: really everytime i see you i always do something wrong
mikeymartini1992 [12:22 A.M.]: most of the time its usualy the way someone else in the group eggs it on
mikeymartini1992 [12:23 A.M.]: i know you just play with me, but its just the way how someone has to have a little bar comment about it
Scoobygirl2u [12:24 A.M.]: mike you wanted this before i left i don't understand why you don't want it now
mikeymartini1992 [12:24 A.M.]: no i didnt
mikeymartini1992 [12:24 A.M.]: i wanted you to stay here with me
Scoobygirl2u [12:25 A.M.]: remember the day of the horse thing you never wanted to talk to me again
mikeymartini1992 [12:25 A.M.]: well i was mad
Scoobygirl2u [12:25 A.M.]: i don't understand what changed
mikeymartini1992 [12:25 A.M.]: but i cooled off and appologisec about getting that mad
mikeymartini1992 [12:25 A.M.]: because i remembered the good times we had
Scoobygirl2u [12:27 A.M.]: i don't want to upset you anymore
mikeymartini1992 [12:27 A.M.]: then just watch what you say
mikeymartini1992 [12:28 A.M.]: and if i see that you are saying anything that offends me
mikeymartini1992 [12:28 A.M.]: ill stop you
mikeymartini1992 [12:28 A.M.]: its easy
Scoobygirl2u [12:28 A.M.]: but i don't want to even say it in the first place
mikeymartini1992 [12:29 A.M.]: u know what
mikeymartini1992 [12:29 A.M.]: i didnt research on it
mikeymartini1992 [12:29 A.M.]: stuff like this
mikeymartini1992 [12:29 A.M.]: u wanna know what the results are?
Scoobygirl2u [12:30 A.M.]: it doesn't matter to me
mikeymartini1992 [12:30 A.M.]: hmm
mikeymartini1992 [12:30 A.M.]: is your decision final
mikeymartini1992 [12:31 A.M.]: ?
Scoobygirl2u [12:31 A.M.]: mike i want you to be happy and have a great life...
Scoobygirl2u [12:31 A.M.]: i think you can find better than me
mikeymartini1992 [12:31 A.M.]: like one little thing like you playing around with me is deterring that
mikeymartini1992 [12:31 A.M.]: cmon now
Scoobygirl2u [12:33 A.M.]: after all the lies that i made you believe after i hurt you in so many ways i feel guilty i always remeber what it feels like beside you and yah of coarse i miss you your you face and u should know u deserve much better then me
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