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Another day right? I woke up to Bryan telling me to do s**t around the house today as he was leaving for work. Which totally bummed me out, but whatever. Then later I woke up at 8:30 and Bryan was asking me why I woke up so early, and was quizzing me because he thought someone was in the house while he was at work. Then... I was busy doing the dishes and laundry and didn't answer his texts quick enough, so he thought again... someone must be in the apartment.... It makes me wonder sometimes why I'm still here. Everyone says that he's too possessive and controlling, but I love him. I feel trapped because it's either I stay with him or he's going to join the marines.... He's threatening me in a way. I don't know, at this point I'm stuck between a rock and a hard place. It's a lose-lose situation for me. If I leave him, he's going to go out and kill himself or I can stay and be hurt. I love him so bad and sometimes I just don't know if I'm overreacting or this is what's really happening.. I want to just disappear.