yea, its that time again. well, first of all i want to give thanks to everyone who gave me happy birthday wishes. and i'll be sure to wish you guess a very happy one on your day. wink also, if you noticed that i wasn't online for a whole day. its because i went with my mother and brother to visit my great aunt up in St. Louis. (which is a very great place. definatly put my city to shame. i mean, theyu have casinos on top of casinos, clubs on top of clubs, carrage rides, helicopter rides, three stadiums. plus we got to ride the great gateway arch which is actualy a monumet to the settelers of the west. learn alot for a one night stay 3nodding but, back to the story...) so, anyways just to back things up a bit. in case you haven't heard, i wasn't able to go to cleveland this year. (Cleveland Institue of art was were i wanted to go) so, instead i'm stuck here in louisville and i'll hopefuly be attending JCC (jeferson comunity collage) this spring. i'm not to happy but i see it as fate. at my 2nd job, which is making a steel sculpture for the city, we're down to 2 people, me and the instructor. the funny thing is, we started with like 9 people, and thats not including the instructor. but....school started up, so people left for college, those who were still around the area and promised to come by after home work never showed....nor did they call. they just disappered, leaving me and him to do all the heavy lifting, welding, decision making, and pay checks 3nodding on a more personal level, thoughts of father hood have been floating threw my brain so much that i can actualy picture exactly how my daughter will look. ( for those who don't know or forgot, one of my main goals in life is to become a good father and to have a daughter. now if you were to ask why, i couldn't answer that just yet) i even had a day dream that she was sleeping on daddy's chest. lol,.....sorry, the image pop up agian in my head. this ofcourse has a huge effect on my love life (not that i actualy have one.....yet) i'm very picky about who i give my heart to.especialy on my self since i tend to fall for the first friendly face of the female gender who just happens to be nice to me. i'm also trying to get inside girls heads more (its gonna help when i actualy have a daughter, if and when i do have one) i just want to connect with a person emotionaly even if it can't be physical contact. although i would like both. but i'm in no rush. i seriously doubt if i'll find anyone in the area. Louisville isn't very....well, lets just say i'll take a Sweet heart over a brawler any day. i'm still not able to say what i want or expect out of a lover, because its not really my choice to make. i got this far in life threw the grace of god and fate, so why not let them guid me to Ms. Right? lol, oh well, i think this will have to do for now, its late, just got back home, and i'm very very tired. ....so, good night folks. sorry for the mindless babble and sorry for wasting your time. wink till the next time we meet. bye byes for now
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