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My fate and thoughts that intertwine with that of the ones I love
crap
she runs
she laugs
she jokes
jokes go wrong
she hurts
she wishes
she holds in here tears
she wants so badly to fall to her nees and cry
she stays storong and wlaks
she walks and walks and walks
she is in so muck pain yet she still finds the power to run by them all
she dosent want to stand at the back
she dosent want to be hated
she is to late
she has been targeted as a freak
she hurts so much
she crys inside but fools those outside with laughter
she gets on the bus
she cranks the music
she thinks mabey i am better off dead..
she looks at her wrist
she thinks that small little vein connects me to this horrible world..
she crys as a line from the song echos in her mind
"it happend so fast all i heard was a gun blast"
she thinks more. and smiles threw her tears. mabey i could do that
she crys more but i would need a large caliber so im really dead..
she crys but quickly whipes her tears
she can not show them she is so weak inside
she gets home.
she falls to her knees and screams
she crys. tears cover her face
she looks at the goround and sighs
she says I hate this place.. so much.. but i hve to come back here evry day for the next 3 or 4 years.
she watches her tears splash on the ground.ill die before then
she gets up and whipes her tears
she puts on the mask
she wares the mask to fool the people outside
she hates the mask
she cant keep the mask on
she can barely hold it up and all the cracks in the mask hurt her so much..
she is dead inside
she hurts to much to live any longer
she is dead inside
she...is me.


Shattered Soul Kaen
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  • User Comments: [4]
    that makes me feel bad...dont worry kiyo...those basterds are gonna pay some day

    comment kino of feel good inc. · Community Member · Sat Sep 10, 2005 @ 02:10am
    dont worry hun... it was my own fault

    comment Shattered Soul Kaen · Community Member · Sat Sep 10, 2005 @ 02:13am
    *sigh* if you say so...i still wanna beat them up

    comment kino of feel good inc. · Community Member · Sat Sep 10, 2005 @ 03:44pm
    Dear Katie,
    My sweet preciouse Katie.
    These people do not matter to us. Nor their opinions or the things they may speak about you. Because in reality, they do not know you and therefor what they speak are only fabrications of their minds that they are lead to create from their own blindness of the world and its people.


    All that matters is that there are people who love you and need you out there. Like me. And all for who you are. Your a fantastick person and if you werent I dont think I would be writing this rite now. You dont need a mask either sweetie, because your a loveable person and should show everyone else how wonderful you are. And please dont mask your emotions either. Dont even let those sad emotions caused by other's ignorant remarks even bother you babe, because they DONT matter. So dont let it build up. Brush off what they have to say to you and go about your life optimistically thinking that there are people out there who truely appreciate you and are aware that you are a very important person in their lives. Because im one of them


    heart Kaitlin

    comment Soggy Crouton · Community Member · Sun Sep 25, 2005 @ 08:30pm
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