For some reason time is going slower today, and I think it is for a reason; but what? I know it is my B-day today but shouldn't time fly when you're having fun? I had fun today but the time just seems to slow down increasingly as the mintues past. Moments feel like minutes and minutes feel like hours as I lay on my bed staring at the ceiling; trying to grasp a reason, a hope, a faith, a way or a somehow that could explain why every night until tonight has gone so fast, yet tonight is going so slow I feel like time has completely stopped. Praying to Eros...
Praying to Eros is the reason! I prayed to Eros and after that, every time I closed my eyes with my hand in sight all I could imagine was Martin's hand in the same setting as mine was. I feel like Eros has controlled time so he can fly to Martin to send the message by basic thought particals. I never really thought that tonight would be the one night that my one birthday wish would come true... I feel a strong intesnity humidifying the air among me. My once thought, my once dream is finally coming out of the dream cloud and down to Earth where I can admire it to my heart's content. Although my love for Martin is strong I feel that my love for Martin's feelings back is even stronger.
I have heard strange noises tonight as the annoying of the time slowing turns to excited impatience. The noises were specific; a clatter between the walls of a gentle rodent collecting pices to its nest although it sounded like it was trying to break through the walls to talk to me. And the sound outside my second floor window; I felt like I was on the bottom floor... something sounded like it was just outside my window... as if it were standing there trying to find a way to communicate. The time had been forever dragging as I change my annoyance to excitement while i realize that my Birthday wish out of many wishes is finally coming true; My heart's one desire is finally making an impase... my heart's desire is finally taking a turn for the best; not only is my one heart's desire figuring out the truth right now in basic thought, my heart is pounding as if it were trying to jump out of my chest. Will my one birthday wish prevail? Will my heart finally stop throbbing in aganizing pain waiting for its 'medication' to appear? Will my whole life of waiting finally paid off?
Rose Mason Community Member 
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