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Hi, this week I have been at my aunt Katrina's and while I was there I found out some interesting things...Some not so good sad ...Ok all not good. I wish that if someone says their gonna do something that they just ******** DO IT!!! scream You know I wish that some people (not to names names) but *sighs* never mind, that subject I'd rather not say anything...All I know is that my week has suck major a**!! Ya know sometimes I wish that some people would realize that they are going CRAZY and clean up their life!!!
Sometimes... I wish I could just be free and not have a care in the world kinda, like a cat or a dog. They act like they have no care in the world and...They do whatever they want ya know eh,I want to just leave from this horrible hell hold I live in. I want to be with the only person I love and care about so much like my boyfriend Stephen, I don't want him to be in the situation he's in I never want anyone to go through what some people go through. Sometimes I think "why is anyone here?" "Why has things happened to me that...I will never understand"
I guess we're all here to be made fun of,abused,hurt,and sometimes even loved. I remember that when I was 10 I wondered what love really was. And why I was put on this earth to be put through things that I didn't understand were, I still don't understand anything. But I do understand love and my boyfriend has helped me understand that a man could really "love" you and not your dad or anything, like by a person that you want to wake up next to...and kinda make a life with him or her LOL.
So far, what I have understood about love is that when you love someone you feel like you'll do anything for that person and that you want to be with him every single ******** day of your life see? I know I'm just talking about love I could talk about pain. But that would go on forever sadly sad . I for sure as hell know what pain is!! cry *sighs* I do know that my boyfriend has helped me so much with my pain and s**t that I don't know if...I should try my best to just ******** stop being emo or let it all out?? I don't know what to do anymore with my life that I kinda well I do want to end it sad . I think I'm so lucky to have friends like Stephen (my boyfriend) Fiends (my gaian brother), Epyona (my very best girlfriend),and a lot of my best best friends that I'm too ******** hot (not in the sexy way) and I want to tell a story xd .
STORY TIME!!! titled: The Best Day I Had With My Dad heart
I was 11 redface and my dad came over to my apartment and picked my sister and I up to go to...Chuck E' Cheese!! AT 11!! eek And my dad bought us tokens and we went off to play games LOL! My dad wanted to play this really cool dinosaur game and every time I shot one; I got a hug smile . And everytime he hugged me I felt like the best girl in the entire world. Of course it just HAD to end rolleyes when my dad had enough time playing the game, so we had to go eat pizza sad . Then in my head I knew that my dad would take my sister and I back home...Which is when I started to feel the same as before he started hugging and talking to me, it was the best 2 1/2 hours of my life!! heart
Well...This turned out very long...for me mrgreen well I must go now bye bitches!
 elena_lily · Sat Sep 03, 2005 @ 10:33pm · 3 Comments |
