Why won't you look at me, the way you look at him? Is it because I'm a girl? Is it because we're friends? Do you not trust me? I don't know if I love you or if this is just some weird phase. But I know, right now, I love you. Not like, but love. I don't know what love is yet. But if we were to ever find out, do you think I could ever be the one you found out with? To let me be by your side. To let me be the person who derserves your love and compassion. Do you think 'we' could ever work out? Like... in a relationship?
But every time we talk, or more likey, you talk, you always talk about 'him'. I don't mind, but it some times gets annoying. I won't ever say admit that to your face nor to anyone else's for that matter. But I will always be eternaly envious of that 'boy' you always talk about. I wonder if my being in love with you, means I'm gay. Does it? I'm not gay, I'm just in love with another girl. It happens all the time, right? It happens everyday, right? God, I hope so.
I never met a gay person before. I wonder if it's okay to be gay. I know there are plenty of gays around here, I just haven't met them yet. They aren't hiding, are they? Are they scared to let people know? Should they be? If I met a gay person, I wouldn't know how to react. Well, I'd start off with a 'hi' then walk about other things. Let's just hope when the day comes, that person won't try to hit on me. Then, I would freak and leave. And then, would that make them feel bad? Would they regret it? Would I feel remorse after I left and made them feel bad?
Only Time Will Tell....
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