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SavingMe
You try to save me
Help me every way you can
But you can't
I won't let you
Move on, stop waisting your time

Don't you see
I'm broken inside
I'm a lost cause
Or so they say
But let's face it
You can't save me

"Cheer up" you say
"Be more happy"
"Let's have some fun"
Get it through your head
I'm already dead

Don't you see
I'm all alone
My life is gone
Just an empty shell
Waiting to be refilled
So just face the truth
It's already too late
You can't save me

In My Mind
In my mind
I am someone else
Someone that nobody knows
Someone that I don't want to be
In my mind
I have become something different
Something unknown
Something I'm scared of
In my mind
I'm afraid to sleep at night
Afraid to wake in the morning
Fearful of my life by day
But then I realize
It's only in my mind
Exept my mind controls me

The Change
Falling fast and hard
The ground is waiting for my plunge
Into the unknown I go
Hoping maybe he will see
The person that I'm trying to be

Sitting alone in my room
Thinking of ways to dull the pain
Can't do what I always did do
Can't do what I always want to do

I don't have the drugs
And the razor is the thing I cant do
So what is left
That is what I ask
I'm just hoping that he will see
The person that I'm trying to be

Sharp objects all around
But they stay put down
The reason for this change of heart
All of a sudden, you ask?

He showed me there is more to life
More than just blood and bone
The scars will last forever
But hopefully so will this decision
The one to never pick up another razor
And put it to my skin
for as long as i live

I'm just hoping that he will see
The person that I'm trying to be
Just hoping that he'll notice
There will be no new scars tomorrow