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Ramblings of a Universal Wanderer
stuff I like to rant on and stuff about my life and my thoughts.
a rant.
I've had enough with humans, I've had enough with this world! and sometimes I feel that I've had enough watching myself try to gain friends or any sort of relationship and failing...I don't want to fail anymore I don't want humans around me anymore..Idon't know if I want anything anymore..I'm just so sick and tired of everything I wish I could just float in nothingness for a while maybe with Taye..she would like that too I think 3nodding I don't know what to do anymore, my mind is falling apart at the seams, the people I want to be with say I depend on them too much and everyone else freakin ignores me so what am I supposed to do?
I don't really care what I'm supposed to do I'm mad and sad and crazy and a bunch of other crap all mixed up all at the same time. I'm so mixed up in my brain right now I don't know what to do. I've always told myself that all I ever need in life is two people, a super caring person, and a friend. I have those 2 now and I was so happy and then they told me I needed to stop depending on them so much...I don't know what I'm doing..., I don't know what to do..I don't even know if one of them is right but I want to keep them anyway. I just see both of them as a bird and a wolf. (I'm a wolf too) Tayes a little bird that has to go with the flock away from me sometimes but comes back to keep me company whenever possible.
Kuromi's a wolf on his own like me that seems wary and sort of keeps his distance even though sometimes he doesn't want to. I'm a wolf. I don't wanna have to wander alone. I would like to just have a small pack. thats all I need. me Taye and Kuro, but I dont know whats going to happen, eeespeeecially with Kuromi. sad sad sad sad I need everything to work out..or I won't be nice or happy anymore.. I seriously don't know what will happen to me...
I just need a hug, I need someone to tell me that they care... I need kuromi....! crying


Elemental guardian Zaria
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  • User Comments: [1]
    Oh, I am so sorry, Zaria. So, so, sorry! Please forgive me. I didn't mean to upset you so much when I told you that. It's just, as a human, I am not forever, and I need you to know that something could happen to me and I need you to be strong enough to have a back up. That's it. I DO NOT plan on having anything happen to me and will be here for all eternity if you need me to be.
    I'm sorry that you have had enough of humans and that you are going through it in such a harsh way. I've been trying to get you to forget humans in a way that you emerse yourself in something so that when you give up, it's not so bad, it's just hard for you and I am so sorry that it is.
    It's okay that you don't know what you are doing; it's okay that you are all mixed up. It's okay. We will get through everything together. I thank you for seeing me as a bird, but wish you wouldn't because birds die to easily, and I am NOT going to die.... maybe something else like that, yet more sturdy... I don't know what will happen to you either, but I need you to stay, okay? I know that you miss Kuromi, but I care about you. I really see you as a sister. You are my sister. I need you to stay my sister.

    **uber, caring, "trying-to-help-you-feel-better" hug**

    comment BookWyrm144 · Community Member · Fri Jul 18, 2008 @ 06:00am
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