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Okay, this is how I feel, mainly about all the fricken backstabbers, those rulers-of-the-school-too-good-to-talk-to-you-but-so-jealous-they'll-spread-hurtful-untrue-rumors-about-you-even-though-they-don't-know-who-you-are-and-don't-know-a-single-thing-about-you-hate-you-for-no-reason people, and those shun-and-hurt-you-beyond-repair-just-becasue-you're-different people, and so on and so forth, THIS IS HOW I FEEL, YOU PEOPLE THAT I MENTIONED! THIS IS HOW YOU HURT ME! THIS IS HOW YOU MAKE ME WANT TO CRY MY EYES OUT EVERY WAKING MINUTE! But, I've cried too much, you don't deserve my tears. I don't know what's bringing this all on, no one's hurt me recently, but i guess it's from all those years with all these pent up feelings, without doing anything about it. Maybe, if you're one of those people, you'll understand how your "innocent little rumors" can degrade people, make them feel like crap, destroy their lives so completely, and also pile on a ton of guilt on you when you realize they tried, and or thought about, and or committed suicide. But ya'know? I'm happy for some odd reason... maybe it's because I know I'm not one of those people, maybe it's because I'm sure of who I am, and maybe, because I have a backbone and stick up for mysef, even if it gets violent.

Everybody's Fool, by Evanescence (if you watch the music video you'll understand even more)

Perfect by nature, icons of self-indulgence
Just what we all need
More lies about a world

That never was and never will be
Have you no shame, don't you see me?
You know you've got everybody fooled.

Look here she comes now -
Bow down and stare in wonder.
Oh, how we love you
No flaws when you're pretending
But now I know she -

Never was and never will be
You don't know how you betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled.

Without the mask
Where will you hide?
Can't find yourself,
Lost in your lies

I know the truth now
I know who you are
And I don't love you anymore

Never was and never will be
You don't know how you betrayed me
And somehow you've got everybody fooled.

Never was and never will be
Not for real that you can save me
And somehow now you're everybody's fool.