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omg...craziness!!!@_@ ok. here's the whole story....

It's all about a guy named Mike Cordi. We're friends. Me, him, and our friend Gabby. We all know each other from band and music class. This year I developed a crush on Cordi because I had been seeing him more in class, band, at lunch, etc. Because we had been hanging out more it was inevitable that my best friend Maru would meet him and come to know him more. Now, I had this feeling that Maru was starting to like Cordi. And what really made it clear was when she said she wanted to join band. After 2 years of telling me that band is for losers and I'm a band geek she wanted to join band. So on gaia I asked her why and she said because of the cute guys. I had a feeling she would say that and I couldn't take it so I just blurted that I liked Cordi. And that's how she found out that I liked Cordi and that's when she started forcing herself to not like Cordi. Of course she didn't tell me this but i knew. When she kept denying she didn't like him i knew she was lying.

Time went by and one day me and Gabby were talking and she told me she liked Cordi then I told her I liked him too and we both knew Maru also liked him. That was crazy. Anyways, soon enough came the day when i found out there was a secret between Maru and Cordi. We were in OOC of Crystal Castle and I was talking to Cordi on msn at the same time. He was being all cute and stuff and I was telling Van the whole convo and Van was telling me "He likes you! Ask him out!". I'm a wus so i was freaking out on OOC wondering what to do. Then Maru tells me she was also talking to Cordi on msn and he was scaring her. I asked her why and she said "It's a secret heart ". Of course I begged her to tell me but she wouldn't. And all the while we were talking in OOC there was an at-the-time unimnportant guy EmperorIke also in the room reading our little soap opera. So, i was getting so annoyed that Maru wouldn't tell me the secret that i said "Oh ya? Well Van and I are pretty sure Cordi likes me back. Jealous yet? twisted lol sry". And that was the beginning of it all.

That was Tuesday night and I didn't really think much of it until I think Wednesday after school when Maru and Cordi were kind of acting all secretive with their secret. Then all of Thursday I begged them and I annoyed them but they wouldn't tell me. Then when i was walking home with Maru she told me part of the secret. She said Cordi knew I liked him. That was...shocking. That's when I told her Gabby also liked him. Maru told me he knew I liked him but she didn't tell me how he knew. And she wouldn't tell me. All she would say was that she didn't tell him directly but he found out from someone he knew before. I was a bit disappointed that she let this happen but I was confused and wanted to know how he knew. Anyways, he didn't want me to know this secret because he thought I would act different and things would be awkward. I thought well that's not a very big secret but I didn't want him to know I knew unless he told me himself. So later that night on msn i pretended I didn't know the secret and I begged him to tell me. Then he brought Maru into the convo and she said Cordi is on gaia. I thought she was joking but then Cordi started telling me what his gaian name is. He said to take the "m" out of "mike" and add emperor in front. Me=o_o...O_O. I was just thinking "No...They're joking!!". They weren't joking. I was in such shock I stared laughing and acting all psycho. Then i remembered what I said that Tuesday night and I was so embarassed! But I was still laughing and I was going crazy telling Gabby what i just found out. She was also on msn that night. So I told her that I wouldn't act any different the next day. In fact I would be so cheerily psycho. 3nodding

Morning came and I was so nervous. But I got to school and held my head high and I acted happy and normal...until I got to music class. It was quieter then normal. Gabby was quiter than normal and she looked kind of sad but I wasn't sure why. I thought she maybe felt bad for me but after class she told me that she confessed to him that she liked him. The night before, she told him she liked him then she signed off msn right away and she avoided him the whole next day. I felt so bad for her. I thought she might have told him because she knew he knew about me and she didn't want me to be alone in this. I knew I had to talk to Cordi at lunch. When lunch came around we (Maru and I) saw Cordi and our two friends Valence and Charles at Val's locker. We were walking through the crowd to the locker. I looked at Charles. He looked at me. I looked at the washroom. I looked back in Charles' direction to see him and Cordi walking away. Obviously they were avoiding us. So after eating I found them in the music room and everything was normal between me and Cordi. We just talked about Gabby and we decided that this whole thing is Maru's fault.

Later, in bio, Val said Maru was crying but I didn't notice. I wasn't really talking to her and we sit on opposite sides of the room, so. Then after school at the lockers Cordi came to me and Gabby when he normally doesn't. Luckily he did because we really needed to talk. Gabby was still feeling awkward and Maru came later but left quickly. She told me she didn't want us to see her crying again. At home I found out she wanted to give Cordi a note saying she's going to avoid him forever because she wants him to stop liking her. stare and she wants to stop liking him. I think that's ridiculous. Anyways, that's around the time i found out that Cordi liked Maru. I didn't really believe it then Gabby told me she knew too. The night she told Cordi she liked him, he kept talking to her about how he liked Maru and she couldn't take it so she burst and told him. *sigh*

So that was the whole secret. Cordi found out I liked him because he read it on gaia and he and Maru liked each other. The worse part of all this is Maru called me later that day and said something so hurtful. She told me that Cordi would have asked her out if it weren't for this "problem". She obviously meant that the "problem" is me. So she pretty much blamed me for her not getting to go out with Cordi. That was a very cruel thing to say. I felt like crying the rest of the night but I couldn't. I had to act normal in front of my family and it was so hard. But later around 10 I talked to Sasha and she made me realize that this is not my fault at all. It really isn't and I'm not going to let Maru blame me for it.

This now brings us to today. This morning I got an e-mail from Cordi saying that he wants us all to be friends and that we should really talk about this on Monday. I totally agree. I also thought of that idea to talk on Monday last night. I'm going to do whatever it takes to get Maru to talk with us. It'll be difficult because she wants to avoid Cordi. But i'll get her.

Now i'm just waiting...*sigh* This is going to be the longest weekend ever.