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Valor
The fragile thoughts and workings of a 16-year old girl who no one seems to take seriously. Oh well. At least it's ranting space.
[insert anger here]
There's something inside me that pulls beneath the surface
Consuming/confusing
This lack of self-control I fear is never ending
Controlling/I can't seem
To find myself again
My walls are closing in
(without a sense of confidence, I'm convinced that there's just too much pressure to take)
I've felt this way before
So insecure

+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+ [/Crawling, Linkin Park]

Waiting alone, I cannot resist
Feeling this hate, I have never missed
Please, someone, give me a reason to rip off my face
Blood is a pouring
And pouring
And pouring
And pouring

Shut up when I’m talking to you
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
Blood is pouring
Shut up
I’m about to break

Everything you say to me
Takes me one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break
I need a little room to breathe
’Cause I’m one step closer to the edge
And I’m about to break

+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+ [/1stp Klosr]

I've given up
I'm sick of feeling
Is there nothing you can say

Take this all away
I'm suffocating
Tell me what the ******** is wrong
With me

I hyperventilate
Looking for help somehow somewhere
And no one cares

I'm my own worst enemy

+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+ [/Given Up]

Sometimes I feel like I trusted you too well
Sometimes I just feel like screaming at myself
Sometimes I’m in disbelief I didn’t know
Somehow I need to be alone

Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
What you were changing me into
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay
Forget our memories
Forget our possibilities
Take all your faithlessness with you
Just give me myself back and
Don’t stay

I don’t need you anymore, I don’t want to be ignored
I don’t need one more day of you wasting me away

With no apologies

+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+ [/Don't Stay]

Rise from the ashes of stylistic division
With these non-stop lyrics of life living
Not to be forgotten but still unforgiven
But in the meantime there are those who wanna talk this and that
So I suppose that it gets to a point where feelings gotta get hurt
And get dirty with the people spreading the dirt

Tried to give you warning but everyone ignores me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody’s listening
Called to you so clearly but you don’t want to hear me
Told you everything loud and clear
But nobody’s listening

I got a heart full of pain, head full of stress
handful of anger, held in my chest
And everything left’s a waste of time
I hate my rhymes, but hate everyone else’s more
I’m riding on the back of this pressure
Guessing that it’s better I can’t keep myself together
Because all of this stress gave me something to write on
The pain gave me something I could set my sights on
Never forget the blood, sweat, and tears
The uphill struggle over years, the fear and
Trash talking and the people it was to
And the people that started it just like you

+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+ [/Nobody's Listening]

The lessons that you taught me
I learn were never true
Now I find myself in question
(They point the finger at me again)
Guilty by association
(You point the finger at me again)

I wanna run away
Never say goodbye
I wanna know the truth
Instead of wondering why
I wanna know the answers
No more lies
I wanna shut the door
And open up my mind

All my talk of taking action
These words were never true
Now I find myself in question
(They point the finger at me again)
Guilty by association
(You point the finger at me again)

+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+ [/Runaway]

Far from my home
No one to hear me, to heal my ill heart, I

Keep it locked up inside

Cannot express
To the point I’ve regressed
If anger’s a gift, then I guess I’ve been blessed, I

Keep it locked up inside
Keep my distance from your lies

It’s too late to love me now
You helped me to show me
It’s too late to love me now
You don't even know me

Breaking a part of my heart to find release
Taking you out of my blood to bring me peace

+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+ [/And One]

I'm tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless lost under the surface
Don't know what you're expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you

I've become so numb I can't feel you there
Become so tired so much more aware
I'm becoming this all I want to do
Is be more like me and be less like you

Can't you see that you're smothering me
Holding too tightly afraid to lose control
Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take

And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you

+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+}{+ [/Numb]

Linkin Park has such lovely angry music... *glomps them to death, then uses Phoenix Down on them to resurrect them*


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  • User Comments: [1]
    GOD, LAUREN. YOU'RE SO EMO.

    ninja *runs away*

    comment Mightyenapup · Community Member · Thu Jul 17, 2008 @ 03:46am
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